Christmas has come and gone and I feel like it hasn't really.
Honestly, this year has been way too rushed. And next year it's already A level year. I don't even know how time passes this quickly, it's as though I'm aging twice as fast as compared to in secondary school.
But this year I've made my fair share of friends, and had more than a few fallouts with supposed friends. I guess it's all in God's time? But I'll continue to work on the current friendships that I have and of course on making myself a better person. It's always the journey, never the end, cause the end isn't anywhere near (:
Christmas this year wasn't much of an affair, just service (which I hardly heard anything at because I was rushing about the whole of Pasir Ris/Tampines finding wallets that I left in bags -- another story) and then after that lunch with LG at Buddy Hoagies (which wasn't the greatest cause I was super super super tired). Went home and crashed and in doing so, nearly completely missed Enoch's Christmas party cause I couldn't wake up. But thank God for my parents, they actually wanted to have dinner with me but when I told them I wanted to go for the party they sent me all the way there in a cab (: I reallyreally heart my parents.
But looks like the new year's coming soon! Time to start thinking up resolutions and all already hee. And well, the holidays still have tons of activities coming up! 2LG kayaking, FIFA 10 Cage soccer, New Year's dinner, Watchnight Service, ahhh I'm getting pretty excited about it all.
Learn to love, love to learn. I think that's gonna be my motto next year :D
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BIG SHOUTOUT TO EVERYONE WHO MADE THIS YEAR AN AWESOME ONE FOR ME. (: LOVE YOU GUYS AND OF COURSE YOU SURELY KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
Okay since I'm so damn bored at home, I decided to write a post! Yay me.
What has happened since camp... TOFU was also a job well done by the TOFU team and I'm really really encouraged by their progress as a batch (: Congratulations guys! The whole day was honestly extremely fun and I'm sorry I kinda screwed up your timetabling. But all's well that ends well! (:
After that was the Retreat Camp (hahaha that sounds so similar to Raffles Institution Secondary School LOL). Which was pretty fun, managed to do some good bonding with the people in my LG whom I hardly hang out with, so that's awesome (: And yeah got to know more Christians from all walks of life! So yes that's great too :D
Okay I know my posts don't do the events justice but seriously I'm too sian to type out so much heh so yes pictures are on Facebook! And since Facebook never deletes anything from its site, I guess history's printed in ink eh?
I'm still sick omg from after TOFU I don't believe this I NEED TO RECOVER so I can sing properly! And later still going over to Eddie's house to sleepover/get ready for LG Xmas party tomorrow. Hmmmm fun much but I hope I recover GOD HEAL ME PLEASE.
Finally, God, I've failed again and you know it. Help me change please? That demon is still struggling with the Holy Spirit inside of me. In Jesus' name, demon, GET OUT. I command you, fool. Get out.
There, I'm done. (: SCII with MK now!
What has happened since camp... TOFU was also a job well done by the TOFU team and I'm really really encouraged by their progress as a batch (: Congratulations guys! The whole day was honestly extremely fun and I'm sorry I kinda screwed up your timetabling. But all's well that ends well! (:
After that was the Retreat Camp (hahaha that sounds so similar to Raffles Institution Secondary School LOL). Which was pretty fun, managed to do some good bonding with the people in my LG whom I hardly hang out with, so that's awesome (: And yeah got to know more Christians from all walks of life! So yes that's great too :D
Okay I know my posts don't do the events justice but seriously I'm too sian to type out so much heh so yes pictures are on Facebook! And since Facebook never deletes anything from its site, I guess history's printed in ink eh?
I'm still sick omg from after TOFU I don't believe this I NEED TO RECOVER so I can sing properly! And later still going over to Eddie's house to sleepover/get ready for LG Xmas party tomorrow. Hmmmm fun much but I hope I recover GOD HEAL ME PLEASE.
Finally, God, I've failed again and you know it. Help me change please? That demon is still struggling with the Holy Spirit inside of me. In Jesus' name, demon, GET OUT. I command you, fool. Get out.
There, I'm done. (: SCII with MK now!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
FIFA 2010 was an amazing success, and it really is all thanks to God. Although I only came back on the 3rd day of camp, I still could feel God moving in our midst and working wonders in our hearts and minds.
Zhng'ed was great too, the weather forecast claimed that it would rain in the late morning but God was gracious and He held back the rain until after the whole activity was finished -- just have to say thank you, Lord, for that. And then the next day the capstone activity progressed nearly without any hitches at all, so that's something to thank God for too.
But most importantly I want to thank God for being so amazing and so awe-inspiring especially during the time immediately after Omega 2.0. Having read through the list of people being called out I realized that many pairs of great friends had been broken up, but after they were reunited, that feeling of guilt and loneliness didn't just slide away and disappear. People were crying, hugging, saying "I'm sorry I didn't help you", and that really made everything all the more beautiful. The attitude everyone had was just amazing -- even those who went down early found ways to get their phones and messaged the people in the chapel who didn't make it. Even though it was just a game, they still did it. I really marvel at the wonder of God's most beloved creation.
Serving in the camp committee this time round certainly has been an eye-opening experience for me, and I did enjoy myself vastly doing all sorts of odd jobs in addition to the camp file(although I still think I'd prefer being a group leader or something like that). I've learnt/grown so much, and I just pray that everyone else has learned tons too, and that we will never forget the lessons we picked up these 5 days.
Now that FIFA 2010 is over, there's only caroling left to look forward to, so look forward to it I shall. (:
<3 y'all, PMCers. <3 you, God. You make life worthwhile. So help me not return to my old ways, help me break free from whatever is tying me down or holding me back. I will prevail against sin; we will prevail against the devil. Let not his stupid attempts at attacking us and undermining us succeed. Please God, keep us strong. Thank you.
Zhng'ed was great too, the weather forecast claimed that it would rain in the late morning but God was gracious and He held back the rain until after the whole activity was finished -- just have to say thank you, Lord, for that. And then the next day the capstone activity progressed nearly without any hitches at all, so that's something to thank God for too.
But most importantly I want to thank God for being so amazing and so awe-inspiring especially during the time immediately after Omega 2.0. Having read through the list of people being called out I realized that many pairs of great friends had been broken up, but after they were reunited, that feeling of guilt and loneliness didn't just slide away and disappear. People were crying, hugging, saying "I'm sorry I didn't help you", and that really made everything all the more beautiful. The attitude everyone had was just amazing -- even those who went down early found ways to get their phones and messaged the people in the chapel who didn't make it. Even though it was just a game, they still did it. I really marvel at the wonder of God's most beloved creation.
Serving in the camp committee this time round certainly has been an eye-opening experience for me, and I did enjoy myself vastly doing all sorts of odd jobs in addition to the camp file(although I still think I'd prefer being a group leader or something like that). I've learnt/grown so much, and I just pray that everyone else has learned tons too, and that we will never forget the lessons we picked up these 5 days.
Now that FIFA 2010 is over, there's only caroling left to look forward to, so look forward to it I shall. (:
<3 y'all, PMCers. <3 you, God. You make life worthwhile. So help me not return to my old ways, help me break free from whatever is tying me down or holding me back. I will prevail against sin; we will prevail against the devil. Let not his stupid attempts at attacking us and undermining us succeed. Please God, keep us strong. Thank you.
Monday, December 6, 2010
You know, after the rushed farewell/disbanding at the airport I was super high cause I was on my way home, but after awhile this feeling of regret and sian-ness came over me. What else could we have done in Australia? How I wish we could have spent more time there seeing the sights and hearing the sounds, but I guess there's a time for everything under the sun. I just feel the moments passed by too quickly, but now it's all over, and only memories remain. Laughing at people over meals, making tons of noise while playing cards, going for runs in the morning, doing retarded stuff and all; I'm so going to miss all that. But I really want to thank everyone who's made my first trip to Australia such a memorable one, so here it is -- a shoutout to my UWA trip friends, for making it such an awesome experience, even though sometimes I was super angsty and all. (:
There's a bit more at the end, so don't just close the note once you've read your part! :D
Deanna -- Hey you, silent warrior. It's been cool getting to know you (and your almighty ornithophobia haha just kidding) Just wanted to say thanks for like, caring about whether I was pissed that day and all. I was kinda down in the dumps and when someone asks if you're okay it really makes a difference, so thanks. (: 1v1 basketball was also really very fun, not to mention your attempt at sharing the Word with Ms. Chan. Really very commendable (Y) "If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!" - Ecclesiastes 4:10. Just pray that God'll continue to strengthen this friendship and that it won't just fade away after the end of the trip. (: And of course, all the best for your national team basketball and other sports whatever there may be. Keep the faith!
Shijin -- Sup Shijin! Hahha you're like, forever high and all, except when you're cranky/sleepy, so I really want to thank God for your personality and all. You've been really friendly throughout the whole trip especially when I asked you about stuff and all so yupyup it's been really nice. Really hope you have fun going to Shanghai for the first time! I haven't been there myself but I'm sure you'll have an awesome few days pigging out and shopping for stuff over there. -HINT- if you see a Spain jersey cheap get it for me! :D :D :D Continue being a really bubbly person and good luck in your walk with God! (:
Teri -- Teriiii! Haha I had heard so much about you before this trip from the soccer guys I really didn't know what to expect, but nonetheless you still managed to break past all expectations. I think the coolest part about you is that you're able to just talk to anybody at all and they won't be like uncomfortable talking back to you. Really, all the best for soccer and all! Hope your friends you made in Australia like Rob and all don't fade away and that they'll continue to talk to you. Hahha Teri's celebrity friends, nice one la. Keep talking to people and who knows what'll happen (:
Wen Zheng -- HEY MAN. Once again you're like, my closest friend on this trip and I wanna thank God veryvery much for your presence. It's been what, 7 years and I really don't know what'd happen to me without you. Okay this is starting to sound gay but I hope you get my meaning. "Better is open rebuke than hidden love. Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses." Proverbs 27:5-6 And honestly that's what I'd say describes your attitude towards me, you're always honest about what you think I'm doing wrong and all, so thank you for that. Hope Australia has treated you well and yeah continue being an awesome buddy.
Joshua Suwe -- Hey Suwe! Nothing much to say here actually just wanted to thank you for standing up for me before Top Gun that day. I really don't know how much of it you were exaggerating but if you weren't then I'm really very very grateful. (: I hope you know how much it means to me! Continue being an awesome guy and all the best with soccer next year (:
Ping Yen -- Hey roommate! Hahaha hope you've had an awesome time in Australia, even though I locked you out of my room a couple of times >< It's been fun playing basketball/laughing at people with you and just hope that you'll continue to be a fun-loving retarded guy although your face is so want-to-fight-with-people. (: All the best with soccer next year too, your optimism is a complete juxtaposition of Wendy's pessimism. All the way man.
Jia Xing -- HEY DUDE. I know we had some rough spots this week but I'm glad that I came to know you better through all the stuff we've been through. Your fun-loving attitude really helped to liven the proceedings and I know although people laugh at you a lot for being blur and all, you're still an awesome guy at heart. Like a toy grizzly bear, you know? Big and fierce on the outside but really awesome on the inside. (: Rock on, dude.
Pei Yin -- HELLO headshot girl! Hope you've respawned enough to understand what I'm trying to say here. Thanks for lending me your camera and all over the last day! I'm like, some pro photographer right :D Hahahha. Although we didn't talk much it's been really very fun so thanks for everything (: God bless in everything you do!
Shawn Yong -- HEY SHAWN you bufflord. Thanks for letting us destroy your room over and over just to play DotA/FIFA 11. You're a really nice guy and I think everyone knows that so yeah don't change! HAHA (: It's been great getting to know you and all. (Y)
Guan Rong -- EH BOSS! Hahaha I know I hardly talked to you during this trip and all but all the same hope you had fun and everything. I bet you we'll have missed shitloads by the time we get back to training and I'll have to miss another one on Wednesday (CRAP I'm getting fat) cause of church camp. Hehe at least I go for runs in the nice cool air in the mornings while you don't nyeahhhhh. Oh well! (: When I did talk to you though, it was funz like yesterday night when you guys were sorting out like your billion packets of chocolates. See you at training man, I am SO FREAKING GOING TO GET INTO THE TEAM NEXT YEAR RAWR. Tsk, such great attitude from me, what to do? :P Jusss (:
Douglas -- Hey man really not much to say here considering we hardly talked during the trip, but just wanted to let you know that you can be a really very nice guy. (: And even though I seemed pissed at you that day or whatever I really wasn't so don't worry about it (: All the best for fencing and all, keep up the lively attitude to everyone!
Vanessa -- HEY VAN. Hahaha even though we didn't really talk much this trip I can tell you're a pretty cool person with your camera and all. So, yeah, good luck with soccer training (especially the match against VJ this coming Wednesday) and yeah God bless!
Thank you, everyone, once again for making the UWA trip such an awesome one, you guys are totally awesome. Totally awesome, y'hear? <3 y'all.
(:
there's no getting over you
There's a bit more at the end, so don't just close the note once you've read your part! :D
Deanna -- Hey you, silent warrior. It's been cool getting to know you (and your almighty ornithophobia haha just kidding) Just wanted to say thanks for like, caring about whether I was pissed that day and all. I was kinda down in the dumps and when someone asks if you're okay it really makes a difference, so thanks. (: 1v1 basketball was also really very fun, not to mention your attempt at sharing the Word with Ms. Chan. Really very commendable (Y) "If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!" - Ecclesiastes 4:10. Just pray that God'll continue to strengthen this friendship and that it won't just fade away after the end of the trip. (: And of course, all the best for your national team basketball and other sports whatever there may be. Keep the faith!
Shijin -- Sup Shijin! Hahha you're like, forever high and all, except when you're cranky/sleepy, so I really want to thank God for your personality and all. You've been really friendly throughout the whole trip especially when I asked you about stuff and all so yupyup it's been really nice. Really hope you have fun going to Shanghai for the first time! I haven't been there myself but I'm sure you'll have an awesome few days pigging out and shopping for stuff over there. -HINT- if you see a Spain jersey cheap get it for me! :D :D :D Continue being a really bubbly person and good luck in your walk with God! (:
Teri -- Teriiii! Haha I had heard so much about you before this trip from the soccer guys I really didn't know what to expect, but nonetheless you still managed to break past all expectations. I think the coolest part about you is that you're able to just talk to anybody at all and they won't be like uncomfortable talking back to you. Really, all the best for soccer and all! Hope your friends you made in Australia like Rob and all don't fade away and that they'll continue to talk to you. Hahha Teri's celebrity friends, nice one la. Keep talking to people and who knows what'll happen (:
Wen Zheng -- HEY MAN. Once again you're like, my closest friend on this trip and I wanna thank God veryvery much for your presence. It's been what, 7 years and I really don't know what'd happen to me without you. Okay this is starting to sound gay but I hope you get my meaning. "Better is open rebuke than hidden love. Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses." Proverbs 27:5-6 And honestly that's what I'd say describes your attitude towards me, you're always honest about what you think I'm doing wrong and all, so thank you for that. Hope Australia has treated you well and yeah continue being an awesome buddy.
Joshua Suwe -- Hey Suwe! Nothing much to say here actually just wanted to thank you for standing up for me before Top Gun that day. I really don't know how much of it you were exaggerating but if you weren't then I'm really very very grateful. (: I hope you know how much it means to me! Continue being an awesome guy and all the best with soccer next year (:
Ping Yen -- Hey roommate! Hahaha hope you've had an awesome time in Australia, even though I locked you out of my room a couple of times >< It's been fun playing basketball/laughing at people with you and just hope that you'll continue to be a fun-loving retarded guy although your face is so want-to-fight-with-people. (: All the best with soccer next year too, your optimism is a complete juxtaposition of Wendy's pessimism. All the way man.
Jia Xing -- HEY DUDE. I know we had some rough spots this week but I'm glad that I came to know you better through all the stuff we've been through. Your fun-loving attitude really helped to liven the proceedings and I know although people laugh at you a lot for being blur and all, you're still an awesome guy at heart. Like a toy grizzly bear, you know? Big and fierce on the outside but really awesome on the inside. (: Rock on, dude.
Pei Yin -- HELLO headshot girl! Hope you've respawned enough to understand what I'm trying to say here. Thanks for lending me your camera and all over the last day! I'm like, some pro photographer right :D Hahahha. Although we didn't talk much it's been really very fun so thanks for everything (: God bless in everything you do!
Shawn Yong -- HEY SHAWN you bufflord. Thanks for letting us destroy your room over and over just to play DotA/FIFA 11. You're a really nice guy and I think everyone knows that so yeah don't change! HAHA (: It's been great getting to know you and all. (Y)
Guan Rong -- EH BOSS! Hahaha I know I hardly talked to you during this trip and all but all the same hope you had fun and everything. I bet you we'll have missed shitloads by the time we get back to training and I'll have to miss another one on Wednesday (CRAP I'm getting fat) cause of church camp. Hehe at least I go for runs in the nice cool air in the mornings while you don't nyeahhhhh. Oh well! (: When I did talk to you though, it was funz like yesterday night when you guys were sorting out like your billion packets of chocolates. See you at training man, I am SO FREAKING GOING TO GET INTO THE TEAM NEXT YEAR RAWR. Tsk, such great attitude from me, what to do? :P Jusss (:
Douglas -- Hey man really not much to say here considering we hardly talked during the trip, but just wanted to let you know that you can be a really very nice guy. (: And even though I seemed pissed at you that day or whatever I really wasn't so don't worry about it (: All the best for fencing and all, keep up the lively attitude to everyone!
Vanessa -- HEY VAN. Hahaha even though we didn't really talk much this trip I can tell you're a pretty cool person with your camera and all. So, yeah, good luck with soccer training (especially the match against VJ this coming Wednesday) and yeah God bless!
Thank you, everyone, once again for making the UWA trip such an awesome one, you guys are totally awesome. Totally awesome, y'hear? <3 y'all.
(:
there's no getting over you
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Okay now for a reflective time of emoshizzness. Or actually just a time for reflection.
I know I can't please everyone in life. It's definitely a fact -- I guess God made a "set" of friends for me? But I keep wondering why these friends are so few and far between. Like so far I've really met only a handful, and I just don't know why I can't talk to or click with anyone else. Even certain people I thought would be really good friends turned out... not to be so.
So what can I do? I keep asking myself, what am I doing wrong. But somehow I never am able to find the answer. Okay actually sometimes I'm pretty successful at doing that; I learn from my mistakes pretty darn well. But like, I guess sometimes I also need people to tell me what I'm doing wrong! I hardly find people like that nowadays, they just kind of clam up and run away.
But there's nothing I can do to change the mindsets of other people right. So I guess it's up to myself to make things work out. I just hope that any new friendships that I have forged won't crumble and the new friends I made won't freak out at how I'm like and run away, but actually just help me to become a better person -- that's really all I want in life.
Maybe my life will be more purposeful if I make it my purpose to become a better person. I guess I should quantify it, not just leave it as a abstract ideal hanging in the air. Okay that's what I'll do, and with God there beside me holding me up in His almighty hand, I will succeed. I will.
I just have to fight away the demons of insecurity. There's nothing left for it, because insecurities only breed more insecurities. Like, it's quite dumb that life works like that but that's how it is.
Just wanna say thank you to the friends that have been there for me, always. I really thank God for you guys and well, just continue being there yeah? <3 y'all.
I know I can't please everyone in life. It's definitely a fact -- I guess God made a "set" of friends for me? But I keep wondering why these friends are so few and far between. Like so far I've really met only a handful, and I just don't know why I can't talk to or click with anyone else. Even certain people I thought would be really good friends turned out... not to be so.
So what can I do? I keep asking myself, what am I doing wrong. But somehow I never am able to find the answer. Okay actually sometimes I'm pretty successful at doing that; I learn from my mistakes pretty darn well. But like, I guess sometimes I also need people to tell me what I'm doing wrong! I hardly find people like that nowadays, they just kind of clam up and run away.
But there's nothing I can do to change the mindsets of other people right. So I guess it's up to myself to make things work out. I just hope that any new friendships that I have forged won't crumble and the new friends I made won't freak out at how I'm like and run away, but actually just help me to become a better person -- that's really all I want in life.
Maybe my life will be more purposeful if I make it my purpose to become a better person. I guess I should quantify it, not just leave it as a abstract ideal hanging in the air. Okay that's what I'll do, and with God there beside me holding me up in His almighty hand, I will succeed. I will.
I just have to fight away the demons of insecurity. There's nothing left for it, because insecurities only breed more insecurities. Like, it's quite dumb that life works like that but that's how it is.
Just wanna say thank you to the friends that have been there for me, always. I really thank God for you guys and well, just continue being there yeah? <3 y'all.
Hello once again. I last posted on... Thursday right? So now I have to catch up on three days worth of posts. Looks like this is going to be a longgg blog entry.
Top Gun was really awesome. Okay, maybe not so much the movie, but more like the people. Had a fun chat with Suwe/Pei Yin/Deanna and Shijin about how screwed up I was in the past. But at least I know they're on my side/okay with me. The weather in the park was damn freezing cold though, couldn't do much but watch because I couldn't even fall asleep. But the "sofa" they gave us was really cool and yeah it was quite fun luh, glad I didn't waste it (:
Went for another morning jog on Saturday, this time with more people -- it was extremely fun heh. The waters also had more jellyfish =\ tons of them were lying on the beach dead.
After that... oh yes we went on a "tour" to uh, the Botanical Gardens! To play minigolf (which I really suck at hehe) and then the Caversham wildlife park. Originally I thought it would be really lame and all? But like, after awhile (and after petting the kangaroos) it was really very very fun :D
Went to Broadway IGA (which is a supermarket fyi) to shop for awhile after that while the soccer guys went to kick around with the university soccer players. Shopping wasn't too bad bought quite a bit of stuff to bring back to Singapore.
I hate it when my insecurities start to creep back in. Like I begin to think people don't like me, think that there's a problem with the way I carry myself, think that people are talking behind my back, you know, whether they put on a front when talking to you and all. And I HATE the way it screws with my head. I never know what to think, I never know if what I'm doing is the right thing. Is there even a right thing at all?
Oh well nothing for it I'll just live the way I do and if anyone finds something wrong with it and voices it out, I'll change. But if they wanna keep it quiet and all, then never mind, their loss (:
Ordered pizza back! So went to play basketball with Deanna for a bit while waiting for the soccer boys. Nothing much else that night, other than when we were writing our reflections and talking about stuffz.
Sunday morning! Mr. Lee didn't go running cause he had to take blood pressure of the girls, so Deanna and I went to shoot hoops/play 1v1. Unsurprisingly, I got owned. Hehe but practice makes perfect I guess. :D Went for breakfast then hmm oh yes tour to Cottesloe beach and Fremantle, which wasn't as fulfilling as first thought. I hope the tour guide didn't take too much offense at our nonchalant attitude though -- we were pretty apathetic about everything >< Still spent 50 bucks though! On like a handmade leather belt 8D NICE and nougats and all. You guys back in Singapore are going to grow fat on the stuff I bought hahahahha.
Came back to the hostel for the last night here, some of the guys went out again to IGA to buy more stuff. I was angsting so I didn't want to go but when they came back I started regretting not going cause they bought tons and tons of cheap stuff which you'll never see in Singapore D: sadface! Still, didn't do much but play tennis soccer (funnn) and eat dinner. And now here I am typing on my keyboard this blog entry.
Tomorrow's the last day we're going to be here and then it's home sweet home Singapore. Although I'll be out of the house first thing on Tuesday morning cause of church camp. I really hope it's been an awesomazing success so far :D
Top Gun was really awesome. Okay, maybe not so much the movie, but more like the people. Had a fun chat with Suwe/Pei Yin/Deanna and Shijin about how screwed up I was in the past. But at least I know they're on my side/okay with me. The weather in the park was damn freezing cold though, couldn't do much but watch because I couldn't even fall asleep. But the "sofa" they gave us was really cool and yeah it was quite fun luh, glad I didn't waste it (:
Went for another morning jog on Saturday, this time with more people -- it was extremely fun heh. The waters also had more jellyfish =\ tons of them were lying on the beach dead.
After that... oh yes we went on a "tour" to uh, the Botanical Gardens! To play minigolf (which I really suck at hehe) and then the Caversham wildlife park. Originally I thought it would be really lame and all? But like, after awhile (and after petting the kangaroos) it was really very very fun :D
Went to Broadway IGA (which is a supermarket fyi) to shop for awhile after that while the soccer guys went to kick around with the university soccer players. Shopping wasn't too bad bought quite a bit of stuff to bring back to Singapore.
I hate it when my insecurities start to creep back in. Like I begin to think people don't like me, think that there's a problem with the way I carry myself, think that people are talking behind my back, you know, whether they put on a front when talking to you and all. And I HATE the way it screws with my head. I never know what to think, I never know if what I'm doing is the right thing. Is there even a right thing at all?
Oh well nothing for it I'll just live the way I do and if anyone finds something wrong with it and voices it out, I'll change. But if they wanna keep it quiet and all, then never mind, their loss (:
Ordered pizza back! So went to play basketball with Deanna for a bit while waiting for the soccer boys. Nothing much else that night, other than when we were writing our reflections and talking about stuffz.
Sunday morning! Mr. Lee didn't go running cause he had to take blood pressure of the girls, so Deanna and I went to shoot hoops/play 1v1. Unsurprisingly, I got owned. Hehe but practice makes perfect I guess. :D Went for breakfast then hmm oh yes tour to Cottesloe beach and Fremantle, which wasn't as fulfilling as first thought. I hope the tour guide didn't take too much offense at our nonchalant attitude though -- we were pretty apathetic about everything >< Still spent 50 bucks though! On like a handmade leather belt 8D NICE and nougats and all. You guys back in Singapore are going to grow fat on the stuff I bought hahahahha.
Came back to the hostel for the last night here, some of the guys went out again to IGA to buy more stuff. I was angsting so I didn't want to go but when they came back I started regretting not going cause they bought tons and tons of cheap stuff which you'll never see in Singapore D: sadface! Still, didn't do much but play tennis soccer (funnn) and eat dinner. And now here I am typing on my keyboard this blog entry.
Tomorrow's the last day we're going to be here and then it's home sweet home Singapore. Although I'll be out of the house first thing on Tuesday morning cause of church camp. I really hope it's been an awesomazing success so far :D
Friday, December 3, 2010
Hey blog. Yesterday was really fun. Woke up at 7.45 and rusheddd for breakfast/shower and all before heading down to UWA for a lecture on the effect of heat on hydration. It was pretty alright although some of us started to doze off and Mr. Lee had to pass around the video camera just to keep us awake.
Lunch was awesome my goodness -- fish and chips, fried rice, stir fried chicken, chicken casserole, so niceeee hahah. I actually felt really bad that we flamed the chefs so badly about the not so great food they provided but I hope they didn't take it to heart too much. I know they're extremely proud of their cooking, I would be too.
Afternoon session was a lab session where Deanna, Wendy and Suwe rode bicycles/ran in cool temperature before all of us headed into a temperature chamber with 33 degree heat and 90% humidity -- kind of like an exaggerated Singapore. It was so much like a sauna my gosh all of us were sweating buckets.
After that... went straight to some shopping street in the city to shop for like an hour and a half. Bought jeans for like, less than 30AUD and boxers for 9AUD and a tank for 7AUD and a shirt for 11AUD. Super cheap can I think I've become a shopping master already ahahahah just kidding. Oh I got you your 70% dark chocolates for like, super cheap you better thank me.
There was this musical theater/theater competition after that, nationwide finals -- Storm the Stage. The performers were really good but I felt that some moments were a bit awkward/out of place. Especially the emo/angry acts. But kudos to each and every one of the performers they were seriously very professional. There was this really funny act where this guy used a puppet (Avenue Cue, is it?) and did a song about how he hasn't found his purpose in life. I really think I identify with that totally. Got a picture with him before he left though! Hahah. The show ended at about what, 10.30? So by the time we got back we were all really tired heh.
Got up at like 6 this morning to go for a morning jog with Mr. Lee, Deanna, Pingz and Suwe. The weather was how freaking cold but it was superrr refreshing and all, so it was alright. Scenery was really nice too and all. Then when we got back went to a bakery with awesome pizza bread, popped by the petrol kiosk, then headed over to the pharmacy to get me Ventolin -- 9 AUD only! How much cheaper compared to Singapore man.
Today was a bit dry though, lecture in the morning about motor control and like reflexes and expertise in stuff. I still can't believe (actually maybe I can) that I lost to Deanna in terms of reaction time. She hit 1.28ms while I only did 1.44ms. Oh well!
Lunch was pretty good too but yeah by the time the afternoon session started I was really tired and of course when I'm tired I start overthinking stuff and all. I think I'm sometimes way too competitive for my own good, but I guess it's normal when you see yourself doing nothing well at all, while other people all have their pro areas. Like the soccer guys own at soccer, Deanna's pro at basketball, Douglas is a national fencer, but I'm nobody. So like, what's the point of trying my best at everything when my best is never nearly enough, right?
But that's just me rambling, I keep on telling myself that God takes me for who I am and that I have my own awesome gifts, but like, I still haven't found them I guess. Like, idk what they are at all. Maybe I have a knack for irritating people. Maybe I have a knack of scaring people until they decide to end their friendships with me, I don't know. Just'll have to find out I guess.
At least I found a group for sports science. The people I wanted to work with are all in groups of 4 already so tough luck there, but at least I think working with Teri and Van won't be too bad at all. (: Looking forward to it actually, although now cause I'm emo maybe not that much.
Later we're heading off to King's Park to lie down on beanbags and watch Top Gun and all, so hopefully it'll be a fun experience. Unless I'm too tired to even stay awake and I fall asleep, heh then that'll be pretty darned fail.
Time to while away another 20 minutes of my life without any friends. I miss you, you know?
Seeya, blog.
Lunch was awesome my goodness -- fish and chips, fried rice, stir fried chicken, chicken casserole, so niceeee hahah. I actually felt really bad that we flamed the chefs so badly about the not so great food they provided but I hope they didn't take it to heart too much. I know they're extremely proud of their cooking, I would be too.
Afternoon session was a lab session where Deanna, Wendy and Suwe rode bicycles/ran in cool temperature before all of us headed into a temperature chamber with 33 degree heat and 90% humidity -- kind of like an exaggerated Singapore. It was so much like a sauna my gosh all of us were sweating buckets.
After that... went straight to some shopping street in the city to shop for like an hour and a half. Bought jeans for like, less than 30AUD and boxers for 9AUD and a tank for 7AUD and a shirt for 11AUD. Super cheap can I think I've become a shopping master already ahahahah just kidding. Oh I got you your 70% dark chocolates for like, super cheap you better thank me.
There was this musical theater/theater competition after that, nationwide finals -- Storm the Stage. The performers were really good but I felt that some moments were a bit awkward/out of place. Especially the emo/angry acts. But kudos to each and every one of the performers they were seriously very professional. There was this really funny act where this guy used a puppet (Avenue Cue, is it?) and did a song about how he hasn't found his purpose in life. I really think I identify with that totally. Got a picture with him before he left though! Hahah. The show ended at about what, 10.30? So by the time we got back we were all really tired heh.
Got up at like 6 this morning to go for a morning jog with Mr. Lee, Deanna, Pingz and Suwe. The weather was how freaking cold but it was superrr refreshing and all, so it was alright. Scenery was really nice too and all. Then when we got back went to a bakery with awesome pizza bread, popped by the petrol kiosk, then headed over to the pharmacy to get me Ventolin -- 9 AUD only! How much cheaper compared to Singapore man.
Today was a bit dry though, lecture in the morning about motor control and like reflexes and expertise in stuff. I still can't believe (actually maybe I can) that I lost to Deanna in terms of reaction time. She hit 1.28ms while I only did 1.44ms. Oh well!
Lunch was pretty good too but yeah by the time the afternoon session started I was really tired and of course when I'm tired I start overthinking stuff and all. I think I'm sometimes way too competitive for my own good, but I guess it's normal when you see yourself doing nothing well at all, while other people all have their pro areas. Like the soccer guys own at soccer, Deanna's pro at basketball, Douglas is a national fencer, but I'm nobody. So like, what's the point of trying my best at everything when my best is never nearly enough, right?
But that's just me rambling, I keep on telling myself that God takes me for who I am and that I have my own awesome gifts, but like, I still haven't found them I guess. Like, idk what they are at all. Maybe I have a knack for irritating people. Maybe I have a knack of scaring people until they decide to end their friendships with me, I don't know. Just'll have to find out I guess.
At least I found a group for sports science. The people I wanted to work with are all in groups of 4 already so tough luck there, but at least I think working with Teri and Van won't be too bad at all. (: Looking forward to it actually, although now cause I'm emo maybe not that much.
Later we're heading off to King's Park to lie down on beanbags and watch Top Gun and all, so hopefully it'll be a fun experience. Unless I'm too tired to even stay awake and I fall asleep, heh then that'll be pretty darned fail.
Time to while away another 20 minutes of my life without any friends. I miss you, you know?
Seeya, blog.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Today was really cool too. Although yesterday we slept super late so a bit tired.
Morning went for a jog at like 6.30, the sun was up already but the weather was really nice. Ran alongside the river -- scenery was awesome, sparkling waters and comfortable grass.
Then breakfast was pretty alright too before we headed down to the School of Sports Science, Exercise and Health to attend a lecture on Biomechanics of Injury and all. Pretty disgusting how legs can hyperextend into horrible disgusting positions. Then walk back, lunch was quite alright (hee I tend to say this a lot).
But the afternoon session was really cool. The professor showed us the sports science lab with its force plates and 3D cameras and all -- how expensive can. Then he attached like these reflective nodes onto different parts of my body and recreated a 3D me from the cameras. Just lines though, nothing too fantastical.
And then there was this electrical impulse sensor which he attached to Pei Yin (now officially called Pink) to see how the muscles react to weights and movements and all. Naiz much.
Then went for a tour of the grounds, I think University of Western Australia has a really really nice place. Oh, the irony. It's completely open to the public, so it's a community university, but it's also a elite university. Hahahhaa. Went all the way up the 13 floor clocktower and played soccer too! Fun fun fun I've lost everything -- ball sense, positioning, off the ball running -- except for my reflexes <3 Thank God.
Came back to the hostel to play more basketball (ahhh how I wish I were taller but oh well I shall be content with my God-given height) and then dinner (which omg sucked except for the Cajun fish (Y) ) Then Mr. Lee gave us this tutorial on how to use this program which captures video and analyses it, like angles and time changes and everything. Think it'll come in useful for the project although I haven't found my group. Come to think of it, I actually wanna work with a couple of people. Heh just hope they don't mind!
Yeah then lep-sed at the Lounge playing Texas and Saboteur and Taiti before now coming back to my room and typing this long stuff out.
Going to sleep soon I guess! Just hope nobody at home misses me too much =X hahaha. Looking forward to tomorrow, another really tiring really long REALLY FUN DAY.
Night all (:
Morning went for a jog at like 6.30, the sun was up already but the weather was really nice. Ran alongside the river -- scenery was awesome, sparkling waters and comfortable grass.
Then breakfast was pretty alright too before we headed down to the School of Sports Science, Exercise and Health to attend a lecture on Biomechanics of Injury and all. Pretty disgusting how legs can hyperextend into horrible disgusting positions. Then walk back, lunch was quite alright (hee I tend to say this a lot).
But the afternoon session was really cool. The professor showed us the sports science lab with its force plates and 3D cameras and all -- how expensive can. Then he attached like these reflective nodes onto different parts of my body and recreated a 3D me from the cameras. Just lines though, nothing too fantastical.
And then there was this electrical impulse sensor which he attached to Pei Yin (now officially called Pink) to see how the muscles react to weights and movements and all. Naiz much.
Then went for a tour of the grounds, I think University of Western Australia has a really really nice place. Oh, the irony. It's completely open to the public, so it's a community university, but it's also a elite university. Hahahhaa. Went all the way up the 13 floor clocktower and played soccer too! Fun fun fun I've lost everything -- ball sense, positioning, off the ball running -- except for my reflexes <3 Thank God.
Came back to the hostel to play more basketball (ahhh how I wish I were taller but oh well I shall be content with my God-given height) and then dinner (which omg sucked except for the Cajun fish (Y) ) Then Mr. Lee gave us this tutorial on how to use this program which captures video and analyses it, like angles and time changes and everything. Think it'll come in useful for the project although I haven't found my group. Come to think of it, I actually wanna work with a couple of people. Heh just hope they don't mind!
Yeah then lep-sed at the Lounge playing Texas and Saboteur and Taiti before now coming back to my room and typing this long stuff out.
Going to sleep soon I guess! Just hope nobody at home misses me too much =X hahaha. Looking forward to tomorrow, another really tiring really long REALLY FUN DAY.
Night all (:
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