My brother is a humongous self-serving imbecile. Think just because he's doing work he can turn his music as loud as he wants and not care about anybody else in the house. And then when I tell him he's not the only person in the house he tells me to "buy him a house for his own".

And then I suggest to him that maybe he should use some earphones since he can't study when he hears outside distractions, so he has to turn his music on super loud. And he tells me in his stupid gangster tone, "Headphones your head la."

I seriously feel like punching him. In the guts or the face. But he's not worth it because I'll just dirty my fist with his stupid blood.

Now he's acting as though he's damn righteous and studious and being a totally good boy by studying, and he's saying that I shouldn't be complaining because I'm not studying and that he should be allowed to blast his music even though it irritates the whole household.

And he starts to cry because I'm apparently "preventing him from making his own future". And he think he's going to get a good score for O levels and he's suaning me for my C5 Higher Chinese. Please, dickhead, you don't even take Higher Chinese. And I bet you'll get nothing lower than a 10. Or maybe a 15.

Look at me, idiot. I'm in RJC. I'm studying in the best freaking school in this country. So don't compare yourself with me, I'm out of your league. Is it even counted as a league? You think you'll be smarter than me, do better than me. Continue dreaming.

Oh and now he starts shouting and screaming and absolutely raving because well, my parents aren't "letting him craft his own future" because they didn't allow him to blast his music so loudly.

Genius much. At least he knows how to guilt trip people; just that he overdoes it.

You know I realize that if this had happened last year, I'd already have gotten up and beaten him to a pulp. Seriously. I'm really thankful that God has helped me change so much. But I'm not completely a saint yet. Which leads to my next point.

I'm sorry for having these mean thoughts. Or rather, I know it's wrong and I should be gracious and all. But well, give me some space, it's not my fault that my brother (haha right) is a raving lunatic. Call me a hypocrite if you wish. Go on, do it. You'd understand if you had the kind of brother I have.

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It's really heartening to see Alex suddenly become so much quieter during service after speaking to him last week. I don't know if you'll see this post dude, but we all really appreciate it. Keep it up yo!

I'm totally looking forward to Pre-U Seminar/TGIGF/Ministry Fair. At least they're things that'll take up my time and keep me busy and not rotting at home doing nothing.

Time to go mug bio/chem/math, cheers.

Today was pretty cool! Especially the end. :D

Went for my first Baptism and Membership class, quite okay luh. Hehe I should sound more enthu but I'm not. Although the content is really quite interesting! I'm going to ask Pastor Siew Chye the differences between Catholic and Protestant cause I really really wanna know.

Grace Fung I need t-shirts/whatever! You know what I'm talking about :D

And after that, Melvyn's party was the boomz. To the max. Hahhaa. Met like a whole ton of new friends there, nearly all of them from SJI. But I had a blast. Birthday post time!

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HEY MELVYN KOE. Long time no see before you came to RJC but I'm really glad you've joined us. You're like this complete retard during CCA, but it's meant as a compliment. A really nice friendly encouraging funny guy, yeap.

So as you grow one year older don't forget to stay cheery just because more and more of your brain cells are degenerating! Hahha just kidding you smart guy. Really looking forward to seeing you run during Nationals, we're gonna sweep this year totally.

Hope you had a blast today, and may your wishes come true. :D RJC track for the epic win; CHEERS. (:

I feel bad that I can't get that darned doxology right. ): And like I'm always suffering from this lack of confidence in myself that stems from that fear of screwing up the doxology.

Haiz.

More practice. But practice needs time and I don't have that right now. I'm like totally indebted to Liang Jie for replacing me for this week. You rock man!

Been doing Masterlife! It's actually pretty interesting, hmm, haha. Baptism class tomorrow, wonder what it's going to be like. Still have to get that stupid photograph of mine, heh.

Soccer today was really really fun; I didn't know I still had the reflexes and agility for keeping in me. But it was still there! I'm happy (:

I found a long lost primary school schoolmate! Hahaha. She's pretty cool (:

And of course, ALL-COMERS ARE TOMORROW. And so is Wings X-Country. GOOD LUCK ALL YOU RUNNERS :D I'll try and go down and support you guys when I can. :D

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Im fooling myself, she'll never be mine its too late now.



Cause you know;
That I love you, I've loved you all along
And I miss you, been far away for far too long.

I need to get some work done! And I realised how much work there's going to be especially next year when well, I couldn't do a graphical functions question and 9 J2s couldn't do it either.

Freaky much, yeah.

So I really really have to stop slacking. Oh but handball today was unsurprisingly really boring. Because there wasn't any artistry, just rough play and choke holds. What did I expect?

Pffft. Tomorrow finally going to play soccer with the guys! Gosh we haven't played in ages. And I really really hope I get into Pre-U Seminar! Cause it'll just be epically cool. (:

I've realized how much I enjoy track. Even though sometimes the guys are just plain retarded. But in the end they're really great people and I'm really blessed to be able to call them teammates, even those who aren't in the school. RJC Athletics, for the epic win. Thank y'all so much for the great fun I've been having.

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Gosh I need to do my Masterlife. Tomorrow, after school. No slacking.

Haiz I feel sad. ):

I left my homework file in school at the PE block, but I didn't realize that until I reached and put down my stuff. So I freaked out and tried to remember where I'd left it. Not on the bus, not on the train, so it had to be in school. And I called up Cal and asked him to check if there was a file there, and there was. So not really a sad story right?

Wrong.

My dad overheard my talking on the phone to Cal and worriedly looking around the house, so he asked me if I'd lost something and if Cal had found it. And in my paranoia I thought he'd scold me for it and I snapped at him saying "My friend's searching for it now la can you not be like that?"

And he just looked gobsmacked. And he walked back into the bedroom. So just now I didn't realize that he was a bit sad, but then when I calmed down cause Cal had found it and I went in to tell him it was damn obvious. And of course I apologized and he said forget it and that he had other bad things to worry about I still feel damn guilty.

God, why can't I be more level-headed and mature? I don't wanna make my father worry like that. I'm sorry, Dad. I just hope that you'll continue to be there for me. *Hugs*

Track Camp was the bomb.

Like I really didn't expect much from it but it turned out to be AWESOMEEEE. (:

So yeah Friday was your normal tiring day, mainly because my school days for Wednesday and Thursday both ended at like what, 8+ to 9? So by the time I reached home/do a minimal amount of work = SHAG MUCH.

And my locker was being retarded and not letting me in after I'd locked stuff inside. Lucky the SAC opened it for me and now it's working like a charm. Hehe.

So yeah, track camp! After Friday training (which wasn't that tough really, quite fun) we went for... dinner! Which was chicken rice. Then some cool team talk in which the most memorable event? Writing our goals for the year and what 5% we want to give extra. And I want to well, get 5% more sleep, among other various things. Haha. Then sleep time, during which we played cards/truthortruth. Which was pretty epic fail. But ah well I was being truthful okay!

Next day, wake up in the morning, then we had gamessssss. Like blanket game and handball! Which is funfunfun. (THIS IS SHAMELESS BUT YEAH. ANY TRACKERS WANNA PLAY HANDBALL THIS COMING THURSDAY SAY AYE ON TAGBOARD :D) And then a scavenger hunt for our breakfast. Which in the end was making food for a friend. Nutella rocks ttm.

Friday Night Lights is an extremely touching and inspirational movie; you people should watch it. Especially people who missed it ah, like hmmmmmmm, Danetta and Natalie? Haiyo. Hahhahaha. On a sidenote, I think Mr. Kuehne is OMGWTFREAK cool.

Then slack time until training, which was pretty slack too, and then we played a bit of soccer! For absolute fun. And Mr. Tan was cool about it. He even joined in the fun haha. And then two hours of retard polo in the RI 0.9m pool! Damn fun luh and my muscles don't really ache now! <3 water exercises. Fun yet not strenuous.

Dinner then home; I'm sorry I missed practice! Lucky I wasn't slated on the keys or anythingggg, yay. And gosh I missed like, membership class too. >< Darn.

Ahwell church tomorrow's gonna be cool. BUT PARRY TAN LOST HIS HOUSE SO NO OG OUTING. ): Sometime soon then!

Muscle recovery period is 11 to 2. It's 5 to 11. I'm going to sleep. (: BYE.

HEYYYYYY GLORIA. Sorry this came so late I thought I'd be able to like, type after I came back from sending you off but I decided to crash. (:

So here it is now.

Anyway;

Take care of yourself in Australia alright? I know you'll become all smart and doctor-ish by the time you come back. Or maybe not, seeing as that's in ten weeks. But still, I hope you adapt to life there quickly and then when you come back you can teach us some cool Aussie slang. :D

Find a good church with good fellowship too yeah? Veryyyyy important. (: And don't lose sight of God in the midst of your 6-hour mugging sessions daily. Rely on Him as you always have. Arghhh you'll be having a blast over there while we JC people will be mugging our butts off. But ah well. If I can I'll visit you before NS/after A levels hehe. Then you can like give me a tour.

I'm pretty sure all of us over here miss you already. Actually I am missing those SMS conversations we had, however retarded they might be. :D AND I STILL HAVEN'T TOLD YOU SOMETHINGGG. Maybe when you get back.

Yeap, that's all from me right now. Seriously, take care of yourself! Don't get mugged or anything. Ah, you won't, God's looking after you. (: All the best, study hard, take care, God bless! Cheers.

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Today was fun. Percy Jackson in the morning with a third of the class! The movie was pretty cool, the extra at the end was THE EPICNESS. But the ending was just a bit predictable and short-lived. But a cool movie all the same.

CLASH OF THE TITANS LOOKS SERIOUSLY WOAHHHHHH GOSH.

Then pool with Kieng Wee's OG. Or at least um. 4 people from his OG. Hehe. I had a super good day today. :D

Then Nick's house for dinner then I'm back here. SCHOOL TOMORROW OMG I FEEL DUMB AND FAT AFTER CNY MUST RUNNNNN.

Ciao (:

Quick post! Chinese New Year's been pretty fun so far. Church in the morning was super crowded o_O but ah well we had seats. Didn't really pay attention though >< Hehe.

I got an angpao! From someone outside my family, that is. That's a fresh change for a Chinese New Year. Haha. Thank you so much (: Yes, you should know who I'm talking about.

Gosh I love Becca's new hairstyle, haha. At first a bit skeptical it wouldn't really fit her, but bangs are totally WOAH.

And then walked about the three shopping malls in Tampines with Jacko Bert and Shane. Completely empty luh; ghost town much. But Starbucks and talking random stuff was nice. Then Changi Airport for lunch at Seoul Garden :D (Y)

Self cooked steamboat is veryyyyyyy cool.

And then I've been playing computer at home ever since. My eyes are literally burning now. So yes I'll be going off in just a bit.

But tomorrow's going to be fun. :D Sleeping in, then movie with random church people before another cool dinner at some posh Cheena restaurant with family, then sending Gloria off. I wonder why I think I'll miss her when I really don't know her that well. OH WELLS.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY. We will have so much catching up to do next time. (:

OH MY GOSH OH MY GAWSH OH MY GOODNESS.

I am EXTREMELY HAPPY AND THANKFUL.

This morning when I woke up, my dad passed me a note which read;

"Hi Yong Sheng, Picked up your wallet at Vivo. Came by your house but all was asleep. Call or SMS _____ to arrange pick up."

AND I WAS LIKE. "OHMYGOODNESS THANK YOU GODDDDDDD YOU TOTALLY ROCK." And then I smsed like six people who I was totally emoing to yesterday.

(:

I guess not all Singaporeans are dastardly devious and dishonest.

Today's going to be a nice day for me, at least. :D

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR'S EVE, Y'ALL.

I thought today would be fun. At least it wasn't completely disappointing. Soccer was pretty cool, actually. Had a wonderful game against Jie Hao's team; adrenaline rushing through your veins is one of the best feelings ever. And like after conceding a stupid goal and getting pissed with myself I just self-highed. And smashed a shot into their goal. And then made what, 5 or 6 saves, most of them at the feet of Jie Hao/Daniel. Cool much.

And seeing Suwe scored what a hat-trick of in-your-half shots was pretty epic too. Sad that the J2s got their walkover and Ping Yeng didn't even have a chance to get into semis. I personally think the goals I conceded today were damn stupid. First one cause I misjumped. Second one cause I was indecisive about whether to come out or to stay on my line. Third one because I couldn't get enough power behind the block. Pffft. Ah well.

(Btw I think handball is just so cool.)

But after that the day just got worse and worse and worse. Okay luh captain's ball with Ghostbusters was fun too! But didn't have much to do after that so really ended up walking around and stoning for an hour or so, hehe. And the best part. After Take 5 it's like, we went to Vivo for lunch and after lunch we were going up to the roof terrace. And I was smart enough to put my wallet on the toilet paper container and my handphone on the floor. So when I rushed out to go back to OG I picked up my handphone and left my wallet. And when I realized I'd left it there, it was gone. Sad life la.

And the worst part is the dishonest bastard who took my wallet didn't even return the EZ-link card or library card or anything. ):

But hey, Krystal/Josiah/Wendy, thanks for trying to make me feel better. I guess it kinda worked? For awhile (:

But when I got home I realized that my brother had pissed off his tuition teacher and they had a shouting match and my mom was pissed so I really was torn up about whether to tell my mom. And in the end I did and I felt really guilty because my parents didn't really scold me they just... lamented why I couldn't be more mature.

And I know it's damn stupid to be guilty but like they're so stressed and burdened already and this kind of thing has to happen. And it makes them even more worried that our financial situation won't hold out. I guess the only thing to do now is to have faith in God.

I really really feel bad. I mean, honestly I'd feel better if they'd scolded me instead of just telling me how they hope I can be better and be more mature next time. ):

Chinese New Year isn't going to be the best of periods. But once again. Thanks Krystal/Josiah/GuanRong/Charlene/Wendy. It really makes me feel better knowing that people out there can like, sympathize with me. Or something like that. I don't know how to say it luh. Hee.

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Cheng Yi, I lost your card. So I really am damn freaking sad now. Sighs.

And I always get the impression that people are freaked out by my behavior, and I have no way to actually find out for myself. Like I think I'm scaring away some of my friends. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN OVER BLOG but yeah. If you wanna find out more and you're close enough to me, I'll tell you. Grace this doesn't apply to you. You owe me lunch remember? Hehe.

Dear God, I just pray that You'll continue to watch over my family? Continue to provide for us and continue to help us put food on the table. Shield my parents from any evil works, please. I love them so much and You know that. I'm so thankful for them but sometimes in my anger I forget that they've done so much. I just pray that You'll continue to remind me of Your sacrifice, and their sacrifice too. And help me grow up fast, because I really really need to.

And guard me from my insecurities. Remind me that You are always there for me, even when I feel that nobody else is. And remind me that there will always be people there for me, that You have placed near me, even though I may not feel that way. Remind me that my friends are so bountiful, if not in number but in spirit, that even if I lose a few, the rest will step up and take their places. I thank You so, so much.

In Jesus' name I pray; Amen.

Everything's alright now. (: Thank you, God.

It's all cleared up! And I'm extremely relieved, YAY.

Sorry for the relatively long layoff but yeah!

Orientation was good, my class is awesomezx. (: I think I'm gonna really enjoy life in RJC,

But the first week of school hasn't been the greatest, due to one ass of a girl problem. But thank you for listening to my rambling and talking to me about it. You rock la haha. I'm not gonna care what people think of me on the surface, because that don't matter. And there are plenty of fish still out there in the sea; to quote a certain Katy Perry.

And yes of course a video. I posted this awhile back but yeah it's good enough for a repost. :D



Hehe, pro right. Grah Raffles Rock auditions tomorrow, idk whether I should put a lot of effort into it; especially since it isn't really a performing arts CCA.

I think I'm really very insecure. Like I just suddenly begin to suspect stuff when there's only the slightest hint of suspicion. Call me sensitive; call me irritable, but I know it's a bad thing, so yeah. At least God and my TRUE friends will be there for me, whatever happens. (: So thank you.

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There might have been a time
And I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn
But now, here we are so what do ya want from me
What do ya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m working it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do ya want from me
What do ya want from me
What do ya want from me