I thought I was doing well, but now I'm back to square one. Why can't I just stop and THINK sometimes?
I know it's a bad habit yet I don't act like it is. Oh God, what am I doing. ):
Come on David, you're better than that. You know you are. God knows you are. So yeah.
KEEP TRYING AND YOU WILL SUCCEED.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
What the hell. Seriously. I'm up playing DotA because I know people are doing PI and I might be of some use. And then my dad pisses off because I'm playing games at midnight on a school day; that's totally understandable.
And because of his STUPID mid-life crisis, he's tantrum throwing all the time and this wakes up my mom. And my mom is at first, pretty nice about it. Telling me that I should tell my friends that I don't wanna play and all that.
But then I tell her that I've stopped playing and was just helping my friend with his project because it's due tomorrow. And she starts questioning my time management and his time management. What the shit. So what if our time management sucks, he still has to get it done right? And I'm helping him, why are you so selfish that you can't let me help him?!
The best part is that you, my own mother, tells me "Fuck you" when you can't argue with me anymore. What is WRONG WITH YOU?! When did it become wrong to help people out with something they're struggling with?! When did it become wrong to stay up late to advise people?! WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH.
Seriously. I'd love to help you/daddy, and I really think that I have, by not being a nuisance with my schoolwork and school behavior, by doing everything that's asked of me without complaining. And this is how you treat me?
I know you just want me to get more sleep, but sometimes some things are more important than my own sleep or my own comfort. I just hope you understand that I place a REALLY HUGE importance on relationships. I still stand by the fact that you have hardly any close friends and you have so many.
God, help me with this please. Help me with this struggle, help me be UNDERSTANDING towards my parents' feelings. Thank you.
And because of his STUPID mid-life crisis, he's tantrum throwing all the time and this wakes up my mom. And my mom is at first, pretty nice about it. Telling me that I should tell my friends that I don't wanna play and all that.
But then I tell her that I've stopped playing and was just helping my friend with his project because it's due tomorrow. And she starts questioning my time management and his time management. What the shit. So what if our time management sucks, he still has to get it done right? And I'm helping him, why are you so selfish that you can't let me help him?!
The best part is that you, my own mother, tells me "Fuck you" when you can't argue with me anymore. What is WRONG WITH YOU?! When did it become wrong to help people out with something they're struggling with?! When did it become wrong to stay up late to advise people?! WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH.
Seriously. I'd love to help you/daddy, and I really think that I have, by not being a nuisance with my schoolwork and school behavior, by doing everything that's asked of me without complaining. And this is how you treat me?
I know you just want me to get more sleep, but sometimes some things are more important than my own sleep or my own comfort. I just hope you understand that I place a REALLY HUGE importance on relationships. I still stand by the fact that you have hardly any close friends and you have so many.
God, help me with this please. Help me with this struggle, help me be UNDERSTANDING towards my parents' feelings. Thank you.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Today was fun and exhilarating.
Standing broad jump 250cm! New boundaries :D Although not as good as Calvin Efron Khor's 294cm. OMG freaky much.
I have lost my ability to do a 3 second human flag. It's damn short now, maybe 1 second only. Pffft. Sian much.
Math test was pretty alright! Hehe. *sneaky grin*
Grah half the week's gone and I just feel it's been so meaningless. I cannot wait for partehhhhh this Saturday. (Y)
Efron and Princess so scandalous! Haahhahaha Facebook has it all. (Y)
Byebye.
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BERENICE LIAN!
Happy birthday youuuuuu (: It's been awesome knowing you through track since the start of the year, I know you've been having an awesome time! Anyway I hope that you're coping well with schoolwork and the loaddd of lecture tests and PW stuff that's being thrown at us right now. And yeah, we hardly talk nowadays! But yeah, all the best for the rest of the year; continue to stay hyper and awesome. (Y)
Once again, happy birthday! Hope you had a great one. ;D
Cheerios.
Standing broad jump 250cm! New boundaries :D Although not as good as Calvin Efron Khor's 294cm. OMG freaky much.
I have lost my ability to do a 3 second human flag. It's damn short now, maybe 1 second only. Pffft. Sian much.
Math test was pretty alright! Hehe. *sneaky grin*
Grah half the week's gone and I just feel it's been so meaningless. I cannot wait for partehhhhh this Saturday. (Y)
Efron and Princess so scandalous! Haahhahaha Facebook has it all. (Y)
Byebye.
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BERENICE LIAN!
Happy birthday youuuuuu (: It's been awesome knowing you through track since the start of the year, I know you've been having an awesome time! Anyway I hope that you're coping well with schoolwork and the loaddd of lecture tests and PW stuff that's being thrown at us right now. And yeah, we hardly talk nowadays! But yeah, all the best for the rest of the year; continue to stay hyper and awesome. (Y)
Once again, happy birthday! Hope you had a great one. ;D
Cheerios.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Mahdi your party was awesomeeeee! Thanks for having the track team over for just a crazy time of hydrating each other and pigging out. :D
Went there at like, 4.30? Where Berenice Zahrah GL Keefe Jon and Kevin were already filling water bombs. And then suddenly out of the blue they just started pelting each other and the party hadn't even started yet. But the most epic moment was when everyone was there already, and Mahdi decided to play a game. Five losers were chosen, and given eggs; 1 was supposedly uncooked. So we all smashed them against our heads and ohwhatagreatsurprise all of them were raw. Mahdi you sneaky little thing hahahhaha. Great trick bro.
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=434504598834&subj=721313834
"That was so stupid!!! Why would anyone crack an egg on their head?!?"
And then we seriously had a food fight. Like, in the literal meaning of the term. To quote Keefe, "water, soy sauce and milk make one hell of a party :D" You forgot to mention mayo, soap, oranges, whipped cream and whatnot. HAHA.
Dinner was awesome, THANK YOU AUNTY AND MAHDI. Oh and seriously, a regular sized pool table?!?! (Y). Not to mention more dares involving shirt stripping and water using the pool table! Left at nearly 10.30 to cab home otherwise I wouldn't be typing this right now.
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I really think tiredness kills me. Always feel super freaking emo when I'm exhausted mentally and it's like I start to jump to conclusions and everything. It's not so bad when I'm physically tired cause if that's the case I just zone out. But when I'm mentally tired it's such a different case. Ahhh well.
And I just feel that I'm so out of my depth in my class sometimes. Like everyone is so over-achieving and here I am just making my own way trying to do what I can even though I'm some major bigass slacker. Yeah. But sometimes it's so infuriating that I can't even find things to talk about that are in common.
At least I have a few people I can really talk to. And I'm really thankful for them. :D
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Church today was really good. Worship was epically high, and then sermon was basically roughly the same as Fusion. And then... SG lunch was really really successful and I actually think Just Acia is pretty worth the money you pay for it because you seriously eat until you bust. Hahhahaa.
SGL meeting was... insightful yet confusing all the same. I think I'm going to have to work this out a bit.
And talking of working out. I NEED TO TRAIN OMG I MISS TRACK TRAINING LOADS. I cannot wait until we begin again because I CAN FEEL MYSELF BECOMING FAT. Anybody wanna go running?
(:
Cheers to another week of school. Hope it won't be too hellish, but what can I say with two lecture tests coming up?
Ahhhh.
Went there at like, 4.30? Where Berenice Zahrah GL Keefe Jon and Kevin were already filling water bombs. And then suddenly out of the blue they just started pelting each other and the party hadn't even started yet. But the most epic moment was when everyone was there already, and Mahdi decided to play a game. Five losers were chosen, and given eggs; 1 was supposedly uncooked. So we all smashed them against our heads and ohwhatagreatsurprise all of them were raw. Mahdi you sneaky little thing hahahhaha. Great trick bro.
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=434504598834&subj=721313834
"That was so stupid!!! Why would anyone crack an egg on their head?!?"
And then we seriously had a food fight. Like, in the literal meaning of the term. To quote Keefe, "water, soy sauce and milk make one hell of a party :D" You forgot to mention mayo, soap, oranges, whipped cream and whatnot. HAHA.
Dinner was awesome, THANK YOU AUNTY AND MAHDI. Oh and seriously, a regular sized pool table?!?! (Y). Not to mention more dares involving shirt stripping and water using the pool table! Left at nearly 10.30 to cab home otherwise I wouldn't be typing this right now.
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I really think tiredness kills me. Always feel super freaking emo when I'm exhausted mentally and it's like I start to jump to conclusions and everything. It's not so bad when I'm physically tired cause if that's the case I just zone out. But when I'm mentally tired it's such a different case. Ahhh well.
And I just feel that I'm so out of my depth in my class sometimes. Like everyone is so over-achieving and here I am just making my own way trying to do what I can even though I'm some major bigass slacker. Yeah. But sometimes it's so infuriating that I can't even find things to talk about that are in common.
At least I have a few people I can really talk to. And I'm really thankful for them. :D
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Church today was really good. Worship was epically high, and then sermon was basically roughly the same as Fusion. And then... SG lunch was really really successful and I actually think Just Acia is pretty worth the money you pay for it because you seriously eat until you bust. Hahhahaa.
SGL meeting was... insightful yet confusing all the same. I think I'm going to have to work this out a bit.
And talking of working out. I NEED TO TRAIN OMG I MISS TRACK TRAINING LOADS. I cannot wait until we begin again because I CAN FEEL MYSELF BECOMING FAT. Anybody wanna go running?
(:
Cheers to another week of school. Hope it won't be too hellish, but what can I say with two lecture tests coming up?
Ahhhh.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
TAN GUAN RONG you were awesome yesterday. :D
Which was incidentally an awesomely fun day actually; school ending at 12.30 and then going home early to lepak until about 4 before going down to church to "help out" with the BB and GB stuff. Didn't really do much, actually. Heh. Only bad spot? PW is being a bitch and not even half the year's gone yet.
But the later part of the day was magical. Met up with Mel and Aisyah before heading down to Victoria Concert Hall for Chamber Ensemble concert! I honestly think they did awesomely well even though some people might think otherwise. And to make it better the whole J1 track team was there, plus Debby/Jacob/Amit/Cheryl. Then MORE track lepaking at Macs until what, 11.30 before we frantically tried to find cabs that allowed five people. Which, in the end, were none. So CalMelJon did a nice thing and spent money so we could all cab home together.
Reached home at what, past midnight. But I really had an awesome time.
Today's going to be as good, if not better. :D
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PW PW PW why do you have to be such an 'integral' part of the A level syllabus? It just doesn't make sense -.- tell me what lifeskill this gives us? My gawshhhhh.
But otherwise I'm doing alright. I NEED MORE WORK ETHIC PFFFFT RAWR. I feel so out of depth especially in my class, where everyone is aiming like past the stars into some unknown dimension with their ambitions and whatnot. There is something called overachieving you know. And the way they talk about being behind lessons and not finishing tutorials. Let's just say that other classes have people who haven't even started doing those tutorials, okay?
Gosh, take a chill pill already.
That was not a rant (: Just trying to... focus myself and not lose track of who I am. Yeah. Although I do admit that I need to work a BIT harder.
GOD WILL PROVIDE A WAY.
Cheerios.
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With all the earth we will sing;
God our hope and our salvation,
Worthy of all the praise.
Which was incidentally an awesomely fun day actually; school ending at 12.30 and then going home early to lepak until about 4 before going down to church to "help out" with the BB and GB stuff. Didn't really do much, actually. Heh. Only bad spot? PW is being a bitch and not even half the year's gone yet.
But the later part of the day was magical. Met up with Mel and Aisyah before heading down to Victoria Concert Hall for Chamber Ensemble concert! I honestly think they did awesomely well even though some people might think otherwise. And to make it better the whole J1 track team was there, plus Debby/Jacob/Amit/Cheryl. Then MORE track lepaking at Macs until what, 11.30 before we frantically tried to find cabs that allowed five people. Which, in the end, were none. So CalMelJon did a nice thing and spent money so we could all cab home together.
Reached home at what, past midnight. But I really had an awesome time.
Today's going to be as good, if not better. :D
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PW PW PW why do you have to be such an 'integral' part of the A level syllabus? It just doesn't make sense -.- tell me what lifeskill this gives us? My gawshhhhh.
But otherwise I'm doing alright. I NEED MORE WORK ETHIC PFFFFT RAWR. I feel so out of depth especially in my class, where everyone is aiming like past the stars into some unknown dimension with their ambitions and whatnot. There is something called overachieving you know. And the way they talk about being behind lessons and not finishing tutorials. Let's just say that other classes have people who haven't even started doing those tutorials, okay?
Gosh, take a chill pill already.
That was not a rant (: Just trying to... focus myself and not lose track of who I am. Yeah. Although I do admit that I need to work a BIT harder.
GOD WILL PROVIDE A WAY.
Cheerios.
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With all the earth we will sing;
God our hope and our salvation,
Worthy of all the praise.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
I kind of realize how deluded I've been; seems like the people I thought were shielded against me are actually the people I can be retarded with the most. Thank you guys.
AND I'm still failing. Even after renewal. It's a daily battle and I really want to win every single day. So God, help me. Help me with Your amazing strength and grace. Don't make me second-guess myself; lie to myself. Thank You. I'm sorry for continuously straying from You, help me get my life back on the right path. Forgive me I pray; I know You love me so so much. Let me live a true life so that I'll never doubt myself, I'll never have that burden weighing down on my shoulders. All this in Jesus' name, Amen.
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Guan Rong's chamber concert tomorrow! I can't wait I think it's going to be awesome. Good luck yeah! You'll do awesome :D
And then a super long weekend hmmmmm but I think I'll be okay. The stress of PW is kind of catching up but I'm sure we can al handle it right, Krystal/Guan Lin/JieMin/Ke Xin. Cheers!
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This singer is goooooood (Y).
(:
Okay I'm going to sleep freaking early today. Because I'm totally gonna talk to Him. I need to. Bye!
AND I'm still failing. Even after renewal. It's a daily battle and I really want to win every single day. So God, help me. Help me with Your amazing strength and grace. Don't make me second-guess myself; lie to myself. Thank You. I'm sorry for continuously straying from You, help me get my life back on the right path. Forgive me I pray; I know You love me so so much. Let me live a true life so that I'll never doubt myself, I'll never have that burden weighing down on my shoulders. All this in Jesus' name, Amen.
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Guan Rong's chamber concert tomorrow! I can't wait I think it's going to be awesome. Good luck yeah! You'll do awesome :D
And then a super long weekend hmmmmm but I think I'll be okay. The stress of PW is kind of catching up but I'm sure we can al handle it right, Krystal/Guan Lin/JieMin/Ke Xin. Cheers!
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This singer is goooooood (Y).
(:
Okay I'm going to sleep freaking early today. Because I'm totally gonna talk to Him. I need to. Bye!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Fusion was awesome. (Y) I felt really... fuzzy (SERIOUSLY) inside during the whole thing because I could just shout out my love for God without any things holding me back. Pictures will come soon I promise. :D
Like at the start I was pretty taken aback cause we were singing hymns which honestly were quite cool. But soon the house band started rocking the foundations and we just rocked along with them. And Pastor Kai Ming's sermon was so awesome. He made his message so plainly clear. There IS a God. (:
Ended at 11 plus, can you believe that.
And then there was today. I know it wasn't really orthodox but I'm seriously glad that I chose to get baptized. Because it marks this epic milestone in my life where I seriously drop all the excess baggage that I've had and just live my life for God. :D Discipline time. And I'm glad my parents don't mind; still working on them though. It was stupid to not ask them to come; I thought they didn't really bother about what I did in church but who knows? Maybe I'm wrong.
Lavish Dine is an awesome catering place by the way.
Renewed;
<3
Like at the start I was pretty taken aback cause we were singing hymns which honestly were quite cool. But soon the house band started rocking the foundations and we just rocked along with them. And Pastor Kai Ming's sermon was so awesome. He made his message so plainly clear. There IS a God. (:
Ended at 11 plus, can you believe that.
And then there was today. I know it wasn't really orthodox but I'm seriously glad that I chose to get baptized. Because it marks this epic milestone in my life where I seriously drop all the excess baggage that I've had and just live my life for God. :D Discipline time. And I'm glad my parents don't mind; still working on them though. It was stupid to not ask them to come; I thought they didn't really bother about what I did in church but who knows? Maybe I'm wrong.
Lavish Dine is an awesome catering place by the way.
Renewed;
<3
Thursday, April 15, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEOW YEONG YANG.
Thanks for being such an awesome track teammate and friend. I totally look up to you at how you can control you temper even though we're the subject of lame pranks sometimes and everything. And for being such a pro on the track!
So yes, getting to that, congrats on your 4 medal haul at this year's Nationals. Not an easy feat (maybe for me) but for you I'm sure it's pretty awesome. Now it's ack to mugging like a mugger in this mugger school of ours. Continue to be a humble servant of God and looking to Him in your times of need!
I really thank Him for blessing all our lives with you and I just hope that you'll continue being the cheerful fun-loving person you are.
Praise be to Him! And once more, happy birthday. Have an awesome night!
Oh and this is the first time I've done a video shoutout but I think it's really fitting. (Y) Cheers!
Thanks for being such an awesome track teammate and friend. I totally look up to you at how you can control you temper even though we're the subject of lame pranks sometimes and everything. And for being such a pro on the track!
So yes, getting to that, congrats on your 4 medal haul at this year's Nationals. Not an easy feat (maybe for me) but for you I'm sure it's pretty awesome. Now it's ack to mugging like a mugger in this mugger school of ours. Continue to be a humble servant of God and looking to Him in your times of need!
I really thank Him for blessing all our lives with you and I just hope that you'll continue being the cheerful fun-loving person you are.
Praise be to Him! And once more, happy birthday. Have an awesome night!
Oh and this is the first time I've done a video shoutout but I think it's really fitting. (Y) Cheers!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
GO RAFFLES TRACK AND FIELD. LET'S TEAR UP THE TRACK TOMORROW AFTERNOON AND BRING HOME THOSE GOLDS.
Even though I'm not doing anything to contribute except cheer till my lungs burst and my vocal cords snap.
Good luck Shahrir, Calvin, Yeong Yang, Zahrah, Berenice, Aisyah, Inez, Fiona, Cheryl, and whoever else I can't think of right now. You guys will do awesome. I just know it.
<3
And then we stuff ourselves with 29 dollar buffet food.
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To B or not to B; that is the question. Chances are, to B.
Even though I'm not doing anything to contribute except cheer till my lungs burst and my vocal cords snap.
Good luck Shahrir, Calvin, Yeong Yang, Zahrah, Berenice, Aisyah, Inez, Fiona, Cheryl, and whoever else I can't think of right now. You guys will do awesome. I just know it.
<3
And then we stuff ourselves with 29 dollar buffet food.
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To B or not to B; that is the question. Chances are, to B.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Why does my life feel so shitty?
I'm so far behind in schoolwork. I suck at track, even though I love it so much. My relationships with my friends are all so superficial and sometimes awkward. And the friends who I really trust I hardly see; talk to.
To anyone who thinks I like them, please, I'm just a friendly guy. Don't take how I behave the wrong way.
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Like said point, my schoolwork is dying. And I have absolutely no motivation to study. Starting with Econs lecture test tomorrow. Wts.
And I don't see any point in me going to school it's just routine and repetitive and focus-less. To make it worse, I have no idea how to make it better.
Don't give me that crap with "positive attitude" and all that shit, because how can I have a positive attitude when I feel that so many things are stacking against me?
If I didn't have God I'd be so forsaken right now. He is totally awesome.
Desert song. That's what I feel right now. In a desert.
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What, please tell me what I did to you to deserve this. I want to know; and it would make life so much easier.
On a happier side note; Thank you so much, Grace and Zara. You've been really bright lights in my life recently. (:
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Track nationals today was pretty good! Pretty pretty good actually. REALLY GOOD. Congratulations Shahrir Anuar, Seow Yeong Yang and Calvin Ethan Khor. Great job sweeping 200m; first sprints sweep in God knows how long. (:
And congrats to Inez and Cheryl and Nat for doing so well in 400mH! You guys are awesome.
Oh and of course, a shoutout for Champion Wan Zahrah who basically destroyed everyone in 3000k A Girls. (Y)!
TO ALL COMPETITORS ON FINAL DAY: GOOD LUCK GOD BLESS. We'll win it; I just know.
I'm so far behind in schoolwork. I suck at track, even though I love it so much. My relationships with my friends are all so superficial and sometimes awkward. And the friends who I really trust I hardly see; talk to.
To anyone who thinks I like them, please, I'm just a friendly guy. Don't take how I behave the wrong way.
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Like said point, my schoolwork is dying. And I have absolutely no motivation to study. Starting with Econs lecture test tomorrow. Wts.
And I don't see any point in me going to school it's just routine and repetitive and focus-less. To make it worse, I have no idea how to make it better.
Don't give me that crap with "positive attitude" and all that shit, because how can I have a positive attitude when I feel that so many things are stacking against me?
If I didn't have God I'd be so forsaken right now. He is totally awesome.
Desert song. That's what I feel right now. In a desert.
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What, please tell me what I did to you to deserve this. I want to know; and it would make life so much easier.
On a happier side note; Thank you so much, Grace and Zara. You've been really bright lights in my life recently. (:
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Track nationals today was pretty good! Pretty pretty good actually. REALLY GOOD. Congratulations Shahrir Anuar, Seow Yeong Yang and Calvin Ethan Khor. Great job sweeping 200m; first sprints sweep in God knows how long. (:
And congrats to Inez and Cheryl and Nat for doing so well in 400mH! You guys are awesome.
Oh and of course, a shoutout for Champion Wan Zahrah who basically destroyed everyone in 3000k A Girls. (Y)!
TO ALL COMPETITORS ON FINAL DAY: GOOD LUCK GOD BLESS. We'll win it; I just know.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Why must my brother be such a selfish asshole? My mom is pissed at him because he always never does his homework and she spends so much money on his tuition, so he goes and turns on his music super loud (which I really don't like), not caring about anybody else in the room. At all. Like seriously. If he doesn't want to hear my mom shouting then go buy earplugs or something, don't do things that irritate other people. Honestly.
Anyway church today was good, sermon on spending our time wisely (which I have continually and consistently failed to do) before SG time. Ice cream is good. Cheap ice cream is better! Then lunch out with RachK Rebecca Felicia Mabel and her sis. BBQ chicken isn't that awesome, hehe. (:
Tried to study in church, at least I managed to complete infinitely more homework today than yesterday (that is, 2 worksheets as compared to none). YEAH. I'm on my way to becoming a workhorse.
Cannot wait for tomorrow! Is this what, the third time I'm saying this? Hehe. And then there's Fusion this Saturday. People please do check your event page on Facebook kthxbyeeeeeee.
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I need to know how to read behaviors; cause I'm getting dizzy from the whirlwind of complexities.
Anyway church today was good, sermon on spending our time wisely (which I have continually and consistently failed to do) before SG time. Ice cream is good. Cheap ice cream is better! Then lunch out with RachK Rebecca Felicia Mabel and her sis. BBQ chicken isn't that awesome, hehe. (:
Tried to study in church, at least I managed to complete infinitely more homework today than yesterday (that is, 2 worksheets as compared to none). YEAH. I'm on my way to becoming a workhorse.
Cannot wait for tomorrow! Is this what, the third time I'm saying this? Hehe. And then there's Fusion this Saturday. People please do check your event page on Facebook kthxbyeeeeeee.
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I need to know how to read behaviors; cause I'm getting dizzy from the whirlwind of complexities.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Today was one of the most un-fulfilling days ever. Bored to the max. Didn't go for SC carnival because it's too darned far away and didn't have anything to do for One Voice practice because they had a full band already. Oh well.
Finally completed Baptism and Membership class though! I'm looking forward to the service and a new start with God. (: He knows I need it.
And I really need to start doing work, I just realized how much I'm lost today when I looked at a couple of questions and went 'huh?'. Tomorrow afternoon is a work day, I'm sorry Galacticos. You guys'll do fine without me, anytime anyday. :D
Okay. Things to do.
Econs Case Study.
Chem Tutorials and Worksheet.
Math Tutorials.
Biology Tutorials.
Holy crap that's so much, at least I'm missing school on Monday (Y). Time to start finding people to study with.
LAST TWO DAYS OF TRACK AND FIELD NATIONALS I REALLY CANNOT WAIT REALLY REALLY. LET'S OWN PEOPLE.
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I'm finding it so hard, Father, but I know there's always a way and that way is through You.
Finally completed Baptism and Membership class though! I'm looking forward to the service and a new start with God. (: He knows I need it.
And I really need to start doing work, I just realized how much I'm lost today when I looked at a couple of questions and went 'huh?'. Tomorrow afternoon is a work day, I'm sorry Galacticos. You guys'll do fine without me, anytime anyday. :D
Okay. Things to do.
Econs Case Study.
Chem Tutorials and Worksheet.
Math Tutorials.
Biology Tutorials.
Holy crap that's so much, at least I'm missing school on Monday (Y). Time to start finding people to study with.
LAST TWO DAYS OF TRACK AND FIELD NATIONALS I REALLY CANNOT WAIT REALLY REALLY. LET'S OWN PEOPLE.
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I'm finding it so hard, Father, but I know there's always a way and that way is through You.
Friday, April 9, 2010
I totally love Raffles Track & Field. We're the most awesome CCA in the whole world. And not only because of today!
Anyway, congratulations to everybody who's competed in the Nationals so far, I'm sure you guys have done your best and put in all your effort so whatever the result, take heart! You're always epic. And well, further congrats to those who are pro-er than the rest of us. People like:
Cheryl Ann Lee, Sarah Chong, Wen Rui, Yan Rui, Aisyah, Debby Wong, Calvin Khor, Melvyn Koe, Shahrir Anuar, Seow Yeong Yang, Jing Sheng, Ben Wong, Ng Jun Rui, Inez Leong, and whoever else!
Two more days to our double championship once more guys. Let's do this. :D
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And the weekend is here! THIS TIME. I MUST GET SOME WORK DONE. At the very least. Going to miss another two days of school, on Monday and Wednesday, so I really cannot afford to drop behind any further. (:
But I really really wanna find a way to make all my time worthwhile.
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LET'S ALL GO FOR FUSION EVERYBODY :D
Anyway, congratulations to everybody who's competed in the Nationals so far, I'm sure you guys have done your best and put in all your effort so whatever the result, take heart! You're always epic. And well, further congrats to those who are pro-er than the rest of us. People like:
Cheryl Ann Lee, Sarah Chong, Wen Rui, Yan Rui, Aisyah, Debby Wong, Calvin Khor, Melvyn Koe, Shahrir Anuar, Seow Yeong Yang, Jing Sheng, Ben Wong, Ng Jun Rui, Inez Leong, and whoever else!
Two more days to our double championship once more guys. Let's do this. :D
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And the weekend is here! THIS TIME. I MUST GET SOME WORK DONE. At the very least. Going to miss another two days of school, on Monday and Wednesday, so I really cannot afford to drop behind any further. (:
But I really really wanna find a way to make all my time worthwhile.
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LET'S ALL GO FOR FUSION EVERYBODY :D
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
I feel like I'm wasting my life doing nothing meaningful everyday. And I feel like every week is so darn monotonous; and of course, I feel as though everyone I know is drifting away from me. ):
Rawr.
I'll try to cope as best as I can. I promise. And God will help me, won't He! :D
Class camp tomorrow, not sure if I'm looking forward to it, but I'll make the most of it.
Thanks Bert. (:
Rawr.
I'll try to cope as best as I can. I promise. And God will help me, won't He! :D
Class camp tomorrow, not sure if I'm looking forward to it, but I'll make the most of it.
Thanks Bert. (:
Sunday, April 4, 2010
EASTER SUNDAY IS AWESOMEZXC.
Although we had to get up super early today because we had to be in church at 8 (homg right) to get ready. But everything paid off, even though I was rushing here and there from worship to prep for skit to skit to post-skit adrenaline. Thank God for the success today, really. I hope I'll understand the magnitude of this day in the weeks to come.
And that talk with Bert was a real refresher. Made me open my eyes to things that I would've never thought about, honestly. Even in the minute actions;
What would Jesus do? Am I reflecting God's image? Have I straightened out my spiritual life? Maybe not just yet, but I'm working on it. (:
I always have this bad feeling that I'm going to fail in my walk with God. Not in the big picture sense, but here and there. And I don't want that to happen. Who would? But to be able to do so, I need to have discipline.
sin is broken; you have saved me,
christ is risen; jesus YOU are lord of all!
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I haven't done a single ounce of work this whole holiday. Oh my goodness freakkkkkkk. I should be having more work ethic! Gahhhh crap omgggggg. Haiz someone study with me please? I can't study on my own at all.
Before school starts heating up I really have to get back on track. Or else I'll just die a horrible death. I feel like I'm just wasting away my life doing nothing meaningful, every week a repeat of the previous one. Sure seems like it.
And youuuuuu I wanna talk! Haven't had a proper conversation in ages already.
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Thank you for loving me, cause you're doing it perfectly;
Although we had to get up super early today because we had to be in church at 8 (homg right) to get ready. But everything paid off, even though I was rushing here and there from worship to prep for skit to skit to post-skit adrenaline. Thank God for the success today, really. I hope I'll understand the magnitude of this day in the weeks to come.
And that talk with Bert was a real refresher. Made me open my eyes to things that I would've never thought about, honestly. Even in the minute actions;
What would Jesus do? Am I reflecting God's image? Have I straightened out my spiritual life? Maybe not just yet, but I'm working on it. (:
I always have this bad feeling that I'm going to fail in my walk with God. Not in the big picture sense, but here and there. And I don't want that to happen. Who would? But to be able to do so, I need to have discipline.
sin is broken; you have saved me,
christ is risen; jesus YOU are lord of all!
---
I haven't done a single ounce of work this whole holiday. Oh my goodness freakkkkkkk. I should be having more work ethic! Gahhhh crap omgggggg. Haiz someone study with me please? I can't study on my own at all.
Before school starts heating up I really have to get back on track. Or else I'll just die a horrible death. I feel like I'm just wasting away my life doing nothing meaningful, every week a repeat of the previous one. Sure seems like it.
And youuuuuu I wanna talk! Haven't had a proper conversation in ages already.
---
Thank you for loving me, cause you're doing it perfectly;
It's Easter Sunday! When Jesus was resurrected; and in the same way, I want a new beginning. I want to stop doing whatever wrongs I'm doing now, whether I'm aware of them or not. And I'll need a crazy amount of discipline for that, but with God by my side, anything's possible.
So just a quick prayer;
Father, I'm sorry for all the times I've been a hypocrite to you. I'm sorry for saying sorry without meaning it. I'm sorry for always turning away from your loving face. And I realize, after acting in the skit, that You will always love me. And it is because of this never-ending love that I want to reciprocate. Help me do so, Lord, because I cannot do it out of my own strength. Help me by breaking the bondages that sin has on my life; help me get out of this trough I've dug myself into. I want to live a life free of burden, so that I can jump my highest to praise Your wonderful name. Thank You. In Jesus name I pray;
AMEN.
I CAN'T MEASURE HOW MUCH I NEED TO BE FORGIVEN. BUT I KNOW THAT YOU'VE FOUND ME, LORD. (:
So just a quick prayer;
Father, I'm sorry for all the times I've been a hypocrite to you. I'm sorry for saying sorry without meaning it. I'm sorry for always turning away from your loving face. And I realize, after acting in the skit, that You will always love me. And it is because of this never-ending love that I want to reciprocate. Help me do so, Lord, because I cannot do it out of my own strength. Help me by breaking the bondages that sin has on my life; help me get out of this trough I've dug myself into. I want to live a life free of burden, so that I can jump my highest to praise Your wonderful name. Thank You. In Jesus name I pray;
AMEN.
I CAN'T MEASURE HOW MUCH I NEED TO BE FORGIVEN. BUT I KNOW THAT YOU'VE FOUND ME, LORD. (:
Friday, April 2, 2010
I WILL UPDATE THIS LATER WHEN I'M LESS LAZY.
Today was really fun. GAG was a great time of fellowship and bonding and just being crazy and competitive while learning about God's Amazing Grace. Although sometimes my patience ran really short trying to keep a hold on the sec 1 kids (especially 10 of them) but we all pulled through in the end.
Just wanna give an awesome shout-out to Jill Jocelyn Felicia and Jessica, as well as everyone who helped out with the event.
And had LG dinner at Diane's house after that; I am going to grow fat. Pizza followed by KFC chicken followed by TCC Cheesecake, which is really very nice, btw. And now I'm back. Tomorrow's going to be another long day!
Studying in church, then soccer fellowship, then GAG rehearsal, then worship practice. But it's going to be sooooo worth it in the end (:
Today was really fun. GAG was a great time of fellowship and bonding and just being crazy and competitive while learning about God's Amazing Grace. Although sometimes my patience ran really short trying to keep a hold on the sec 1 kids (especially 10 of them) but we all pulled through in the end.
Just wanna give an awesome shout-out to Jill Jocelyn Felicia and Jessica, as well as everyone who helped out with the event.
And had LG dinner at Diane's house after that; I am going to grow fat. Pizza followed by KFC chicken followed by TCC Cheesecake, which is really very nice, btw. And now I'm back. Tomorrow's going to be another long day!
Studying in church, then soccer fellowship, then GAG rehearsal, then worship practice. But it's going to be sooooo worth it in the end (:
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