And the first three results were... not that great.

Chem 81, Physics 68, Social Studies 63.

GRAH I'm going to get into some shitty class in JC1 and then I'll die for PW and then I won't get promoted and all that crap. D:

This is so irritating!

I'm really hoping the other results won't be too bad... At least a 3.2 average? (:

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Today was SUPER TIRING la. Soccer then training, but training was fun. Yay coach says I have potential and strength whee.

Tomorrow RJC soccer clinic then something on in church.

I love church. I love God. (:

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And about the church part. I'm going to show you guys an excerpt from a friend's blog. And I'd really like it if you could give me your comments about it. Feel free to shout out a tag!

Suppose your friend was a doctor, and he/she had a pill that saved his/her own mother from cancer and healed her completely. your own mother is sick of cancer and is gonna die. you try to no avail in saving her. after your mum finally passed away, 3 days later, your friend phones you up guiltily saying that actually he/she had the pill to cure your mum, but he/she was unsure about the success rates and was afraid that in the case of it not working he/she would behumiliated. you stare at him/her in disbelief, feeling absolutely angry and shortchanged.


well, this is exactly the same thing we as Christians are experiencing. God haschanged our lives, how can we simply keep quiet and not share the good news, the testimony that we hold, with God changing our lives? how can we ever bear letting you all staying drenched and bondaged in your sins when we know that through God you can be set free from the desires of the world, and have a completely new life and purpose of God?

let me ask you a simple question. have your buddhist/taoist friends ever invited you to temple for some special events? or your muslim friends inviting you to their mosques for hari raya? NO! and you think that we christians have nothing better to do in our lives to come and bother asking you to come for our church events, our evangelism and outreach? there's a purpose for everything in yourlife, no matter the obstacles/difficulties you have experienced. maybe it's something to prepare you for the future, maybe it's a lesson that you'll never forget, the important thing is, everything has been pre-destined for you and nothing ever happen by accident. your life is not an accident. you werent the results of a night's passion between your parents; on the contrary, God has conceived you even before you entered the womb, He has shaped and formed you and even known you before you ever known Him. He has a destiny, a purpose for you in life, a mission you must accomplish for His honour. You cant run away from it, simply because you're the only person who's been shaped such that you're the only one capable of achieving that goal. NOBODY ELSE CAN!


Christianity is not exactly a religion, it's about one's personal relationship with God, one's walk with God throughout life. we dont serve a dead God; we serve a living God that's working miracles throughout this earth every single day. anything and everything is possible through Him, believe it or not. wait till you see His miracles, your jaw would just drop and your logic and rationality would fail you completely. we wont be there to mock and laugh at you for any stupidity whatsoever, rather, we'd be glad to receive you with open arms should you decide to want to come to know Jesus as your personal saviour.

there's a vacuum in your heart that nothing in this world can satisfy but God. have you ever noticed that after a great day of playing/partying/performing/having fun, the moment you hit the hay you just feel that emptyness? that's the rightful place of God in your life, nothing else cannot fulfill that place and substitute it. even if you have a bf/gf, take drugs/smoke/have sex/indulge in your own hobbies/go to psychiatrist, it's all in vain?

Remember, it's never too late to come into God's kingdom. Even if you've committed the greatest crimes & sins on earth, 2 Samuel 14:14 says that "But like water on the ground, which cannot be recovered, so must we die. But God does not take away life; instead, He devises ways so that a banished person may not remain estranged from Him." Your sins have been forgiven as long as you come to His altar with a sincere heart and profess everything in His name, put those things at the foot of His cross and surrender your life to His guiding, let Him guide you to your destiny and calling. it's time for us to carry our cross and follow Him. just like Jesus, who died on the cross in the most excruciating pain and agony human race has ever witnessed, nobody said our journey would be a breeze. if it were, everyone would have followed and none would have ignored Him at all. deliverance is on the way and you dont wanna stand there in His presence as all your sins are read out in your face and you're forever condemned in hellfire. nobody in the right state of mind would want to go down there. the devil's torment is greater than anything you have experienced, and the worst thing is you're gonna be stuck down there for eternity. dont believe me, you can go down and try for yourself.

Go, tag!

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On a side note, JASDEEP SINGH GILL IS PERFORMING FOR RAFFLESIAN SPOTLIGHT. And I'm pretty darn sure his act will be hilarious. I mean, it's Jasdeep!

So yes, if you want tickets, drop me a tag telling me how many you want; tickets are going at 6 bucks each.

Cheers!

I don't know what's wrong with me, or if there's even anything wrong with me, but it's as though there's this barrier I can't get past. And it is so frustrating because I see other people walking right past me with nothing preventing them from doing so.

And I suck at handling these sort of things, so there's nothing I can do that I can confidently say will solve the problem and not make it worse.

And it's just so depressing.

Hello Kelyn you!

It totally sucks to have your birthday right smack in the middle of exams, doesn't it? I should know, 5th May is a lousy day to be born on; midyears are still going on, so firstly no birthday celebration, secondly no outings with friends or family.

But I hope you're holding up well! Wait, I know you're holding up well. You have to be one of the strongest people I know. (: So yes, keep up the mugging and jiayou for O levels!

But actually, this is supposed to be a birthday post.

So HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

It's been really awesome knowing you since I first came to church last year and although it's been awkward sometimes for me it's really cool having you as a friend. Continue growing in the Lord and chasing after His heart! And haha, you really should come for service more. Stop being lazy and wake up earlier! Heh.

Anyway once again, happy birthday and continue working hard for your O levels. We're gonna play soccer after that and you're so going to join us. (:

Take care yeah! Cheers.

Yes, this post is at 6am. The clock isn't wrong or anything.

Which just shows you how ticked off I am.

Well I'm all set for a much-needed extension of sleep time, after telling my mom my school doesn't start so early today. And once I fall back into sleep suddenly there's this hammer blow on my shoulder and a loud smack. Apparently that's my father's version of a "wake-up call".

And of course I react with shock and anger, jerking up and shouting "what's your problem!" Who wouldn't? You had just been woken up by a means which you totally do not deserve. Firstly, I'd asked for an extension. Secondly, he shouldn't even be hitting me like that just to wake me up. And so I go back to sleep, because he storms off. The next time, he comes in, turns on the lights and asks "Where are my keys?!" As if I'd know?

And I'm seriously getting pissed off at him already. Nobody in our household did anything to deserve this shitty attitude from him, even my mom was feeling fine. So I go for it. Start arguing with him, telling him how I already told mom to let me sleep more, about how hard he whacked me. And he just comes over, tells me, "You want to see how hard I whacked you?", hits me equally hard and REALLY loudly, and just walks away saying, "THERE. That wasn't hard at all."

Screw off la. Seriously. You can call me a fucking bastard? YOU. Can call me a fucking bastard? Who the hell are you to say that? Just because I react with shock and anger and shout "What's your problem!" when you jerk me out of sleep. Not slowly wake up okay, jerked me out of sleep. Who would reply calmly after being woken up so damn rudely?

You jerk. Trying to "assert your authority" in the worst manner possible, at the worst time, when nobody did anything to deserve punishment or anger.

Calling me a recalcitrant won't do any good, neither does it mean anything to me, because all I see in front of me, the person who's supposed to be my idol, is being a freaking hypocrite. I won't even use the swear word because you don't deserve it. Telling me anger is wrong and I should control it. Telling me that violence is no solution.

Oh, how you're going to find out that that latest statement is absolutely true.

Fool. I always thought you're the more level-headed one amongst my two retard parents. Apparently not right! Why the heck would I ever, EVER go to you about any of my problems when you're such a useless pitiful shell of a person? Stop complaining that I rely on my friends more and do NOT merely call them stepping stones to other things.

You too, go get a life. I'm going to pray for you. And do know that many others are praying too.

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I'm not sure if this verse connects, but I think it does. I shouldn't be arguing so much, I'm just giving that person more reasons to find fault with me?

"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe." Philippians 2:14-15

I kinda failed doing that eh? But I'll keep trying; with arms high and heart abandoned.

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That was an angry post, I know, but life sucks recently. Here's something to make it happier (:

HEY ALL YOU O LEVEL PEOPLE. Flora gave me some really good verses during my exam periods (yes, both MYAs and EOYs) and I had a few of my own, so here I am spreading the love. :D

"Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you that hope in the Lord." Psalms 31:24

"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Matthew 6:27

"Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you." Isaiah 41:10

KEEP IT UP OKAY you guys are doing great. (:

By the way, you aren't supposed to be here. Heh.

Cheers!

Haiz I'm boring my life away.

This is a happy blog (:

Oh freak you, okay? I cannot stand waking up and seeing that bitchy pissed off look of yours. I don't deserve it first thing in the morning.

And all I did now was tell you that my TUITION CLASS is today and I can't go out for lunch with you. And you're start raising your voice at me and asking me why I never tell you before. AS IF. I told you on Friday already, it's your problem if you don't want to remember.

Just go get a life and drop dead. I'm pretty sure all your "friends" aren't even friends at all, cause of your lousy attitude towards other people and to the world. And possibly that's why you're such an unhappy bitter person, because you and dad don't give a shit about friends, do you? You just call them stepping stones to another job, or another good discount.

Well you're so wrong. Bamboozled fools.

And Liverpool beat Manchester United 2-0!

Goals from Torres;

Magnificent. Liverpool finally cash in on their dominance as Yossi Benayoun slides a fine pass down the inside right channel for Fernando Torres - and from then on, it's about one of the world's great strikers. His first touch gives Rio Ferdinand a problem and his second, a searing drive into the roof of the net, forces Edwin van der Sar to pick the ball out of his own net.

And N'Gog!

I think it's probably all over now. United pile forward and Liverpool suddenly have three on one as Dirk Kuyt feeds Lucas and he sends David Ngog clean through, the Frenchman keeping his cool to slip it past Edwin van der Sar.

WHEE.

For your information, that was Jonathan Stevenson's commentary on BBC Live Score. (:

And from Phil McNulty, "Anfield is awash with celebration and rightly so after a win that was fully deserved. Liverpool overpowered Manchester United today and Sir Alex Ferguson must be concerned by the lack of threat from his side until it was too late. Rafael Benitez has done it again - pulled out a win just when he needed it most."

EPIC.

Nani's no Ronaldo. But Torres and Benayoun can do anything with no resistance. And Lucas is finally coming into the game. :D

By the way, Vidic got sent off in a Liverpool - Manchester United game for the third time in a row. COOL RIGHT.

Liverpool's Jamie Carragher, when asked whether he should have been sent off for a foul on Michael Owen: "No. Why? Do you?"

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I think I'm not trying hard or doing enough. But I guess I'll wait and let time run it's course. (: And yeah hopefully I'll feel better soon.

My mom isn't thinking straight, AGAIN.

Like at first she asked me whether I wanted to go visit my cousins in Melbourne, so I said possibly, thinking that she was referring to next year or just a proposition.

Turns out she was being dead serious. And referring to December this year. So of course I say I can't, because I have appointments and commitments already. 12th to 16th 13th Crossing and 22nd to 24th caroling. So she tells me if I want to go I'll have to drop those commitments and start saving up. Double negative already.

And surprisingly, she wants me to go so DAMN BADLY. Like, when I say I can't drop those commitments, it would be rude to just tell them I can't go when I've already said I could. And she's always pissed off when I tell her I'm going to be home early, and then suddenly call and say I have a project in school. So why must she be so hypocritical and like, want me to drop my appointments suddenly just for a trip to Melbourne, which can happen anytime?

And she puts on this bitchy, pissed off, irritated look as though I HAVE to go, as though it's my OBLIGATION to do so. Which it is not! And I'm totally lost, because it just hit me that she wants me to quit all my church activities and just go to Melbourne. How does that even make sense?!

It's not as though going to Melbourne will affect my life that freaking much? And then when I've walked out of the kitchen she's murmuring "Aiya never mind la just let him die." What the SHIT does going to Melbourne have ANYTHING to do with my survival on this earth?

I CAN GO NEXT YEAR. I want to get some experience working first! Gosh, you bamboozled person. Why can't I just go next year?!

Shingz her la.

IT BE FINALLY OVER.

And now there's only Chinese O levels left. Of course, there are the real O levels too, so KEEP THE MUGGING UP GUYS. I'm sure you'll all do fine. I'll be rooting for you at the sidelines!

Today was exhausting. It's the perfect word to describe it. After exams (Bio and Lit both went very well, thank you very much) I played a bit of soccer in the really hot sun. And then, I went for training in the really cool gym. And destroyed every ounce of energy I had left. But somehow I had a cool special reserve and I continued playing soccer for another hour after training.

Now I'm dead beat, ugh.

Let's do a recap on the exams, shall we! Social Studies should be fine, English should be fine, Chem should be fine, Physics might not be fine, Math 1 should be okay, Math 2 IS FREAKING DEAD, Bio is pretty good, Lit should be fine.

Cheers, it sounds pretty okay overall!

PMC Cup tomorrow, I can't wait to get my feet on the pitch again. Looking forward to it so very much! AND SHE'S COMING TO CHURCH.

She refers to both Xu Qin and my mom, btw. :D

Three out of eight down, five left to go. You're going to fall like bowling pins, I promise you.

And I can't wait until you're done and over with. Then it'll be three months of pseudo-freedom.

But one step at a time; physics is going to stress me out so much.

Ugh.

God's here with me. (:

Liang Zhi's party was a blast (: I'll post more later, I feel lazy now. PLEASE REMIND ME HEH.

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Actually I think I'll just do it now!

Anyway so after chem we played soccer. How ingenuous right, playing soccer during exam period. And then I went to Liang Zhi's NSRCC chalet! Coincidentally met Jacko at the shuttle bus stop.

The chalet is EPIC NICE OKAY. And it's huge. Only Liang Zhi and Bertrand were there, so I went swimming cause I brought trunks which Clifton asked me to bring but in the end he went super late so he didn't swim. But yeah. I think I just got a healthier tan!

Then more people came and we went back to the bungalow. Played a couple of rounds of pool, which I kinda sucked at cause the table was so... weird. Cause it was normal. And we usually play on an abnormal table. HEH. Bowling with Cheng Yi Flora Rachel Lee Liang Jie Cheng Yi's mom! I got 65, what a great score right. Gosh. I have totally forgotten how to spin the ball and I doubt I'll try anymore.

After that went back to the chalet where there were so many more people and had dinner! The food was great. And to think I was thinking catered food can't be all that pro. And then cause I stank, I showered. THE TOILET LOOKS LIKE A HOTEL ONE. It's like, I was in total awe at the size of it. And then Vic and Clifton came along, bringing the HD PS3 cable with them! So you know what happens next...

GUITAR HERO. Drums rock, although the lag time is irritating. I wanna learn how to play the stupid guitar, my last finger always fails to hit the key in time.

And of course, the birthday cake. I hope you like the Arsenal jersey we got you, Monsieur Liang Zhi. :D Arsenal's new number 18. HAH.

Playground! It is extremely dangerous to play blind mice at night on a playground you're hardly familiar with. BUT we did it anyway. Kids, don't try this at home.

And then slowly whiled away the time playing cards and GH3 before Jazlyn's dad sent us home.

Thanks Liang Zhi, I'm sure we all had a blast.

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And here's your birthday post! (Should I be doing this now, or should I be doing this next week? I'll do it now luh.)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY A WEEK IN ADVANCE LIANG ZHI.

It's been mega awesome knowing you all this time. You're like a super funny person to be around and even though people like to make fun of you you just take it in your stride and brush it off with an insult of your own. I totally admire that. But you've been also a really good friend and I'm happy God blessed me this way.

Continue to grow in the Lord and chasing after His heart okay! Take care, cheers, goodluckhavefun. (:

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Chem was surprisingly do-able. And to think I had this morbid premonition about it. Oh well. We beat 4T at MCQs!

Cheers.

Today was the first day of the final hurdles! :D

And I'm happy to say that I survived. English wasn't too bad, AQ on reading. But Social Studies. Oh, Social Studies. I really admire Venice and am in awe of its beauty? But why oh why did you have to be so similar to Singapore! "The most important thing Singapore can learn from the fall of Venice is not having complacent mindsets." Grahhhhh.

Oh well, it's over now and there's nothing I can do about it. God will do what God does in time.

Chemistry tomorrow, I think I'll slack for a while before mega mugging papers. Heh. I can't do too badly. Chem, I don't like you; you know, you're fun and all? But sometimes you're just so difficult to deal with. Heh.

Liang Zhi's party also after exam tomorrow! I think it'll be a blast. Cheers.

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I crownd my first Witch! Yeah.

HEY NATALIE WEE.

Happy birthday you (:

It's been really nice knowing you since what, two years ago? And maybe we didn't get off to the best of starts as friends, what with me crashing your training and all the "I hate you" stuff. I'm really sorry if I've ever offended you and I didn't realize.

But I'm really glad I can call you a good friend now after that phase passed. Social studies is really irritating, ain't it? But honestly it is so totally unfair that you guys get to annotate your sources before bringing them into the exam hall. Keep on studying hard! Life in unorthodox schools ain't easy, we both know that.

Hope you've had a great day so far! Continue to grow in the Lord and chasing after Him okay? God bless you; take care. And once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Cheers ;D

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On a sidenote,

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"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe."

Phillipians 2:14-15

I'm starting to think Phillipians is my favorite book.

And I thought you were an advocate of mission trips to less fortunate countries, so that we could see the other side of life, and how well off we are compared to them. I never expected you to go into one of your "I am your father so I don't have to give you a reason" tirades and all that crap.

What is the difference between a school organizing a CIP trip to some random country as compared to church organizing a mission trip to Indonesia? Will there be a huge difference in planning capabilities? Will the school be able to ensure our safety so much better than the church? Will the church not be held accountable for anything that happens? NO.

Please, RI doesn't even do frequent CIP trips to other countries. Gosh, it doesn't even DO CIP trips. And church, well, to say the least, PMC is pro at planning and executing mission trips.

So I really don't understand why you gave me the "No" speech. "No, you're too young for this kind of thing. When you're out of NS I'll give you the go ahead even though you may not be 21 yet." What difference is there from now as compared to NS? To be honest I'd have more opportunities now as compared to when I'm out of NS. And it must mean something if church, the organizing body, thinks 16 years of age is the cut off point for mission trips. Seriously, who are you to give your opinion?

If you think you're so smart, you go plan a mission trip and decide on how old someone should be. Actually, you just go DO a mission trip. Cause you haven't ever done one before, have you? So what in the world would you know.

Ugh. I'm disgusted. Why do you say "I don't have to give you a reason"? Because you don't have a single good reason that would dissuade me from going. Air-conditioned accommodation, warm water showers, a kelong in Indonesia. What else do you want?

And of course, the experience. Who doesn't want to undergo the thrills of a mission trip? The ministry, the teaching, the learning, the fun. I don't understand you; and I doubt I ever will, thanks to your STUPID "I don't have to give you a reason".

You're a fool to say that.

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Back to school, four days till exams. Why don't I feel ready? SOCIAL STUDIES AND CHEM. Ugh.

Okay since I have nothing good to post I shall just rant on something which I feel is pretty darn petty but worth arguing about.

So I tell them I want to stop taekwondo, because it really isn't as fun and exciting as it was cut out to be; wasting two hours every week doing and redoing the same things all over again? Not my cup of tea, thank you very much. And then there goes the sucker punch (to them at least), it's because I want to join One Voice. And my mom just goes into this weird "bankai" mode where she starts asking me why and starts whining and complaining about how I've spent a year and how I'm going to waste so much money by doing it.

Maybe yes, I don't understand how much money means to them. But seriously would you rather me continue to spend that money on something that I'd prefer not to do? No, right! I thought you'd support me no matter what I chose to do; I guess I'm wrong this time.

But really, is it a question of money here? I don't have the passion for taekwondo. I mean, yes, it's fun and all, but I just don't feel like spending so much time on repeats and reruns! And especially when there's a greater purpose like serving God and praising His Name. But I can't really use that to justify my decision, can I? Seeing as they have such a horrible impression of the church and Christians.

But it's what my dad said -- after sec 4 exams you can do whatever you want. Now I'm telling you guys, I want to join One Voice. And then he comes and gives me this thing about how One Voice will only last a couple of months or so. A commitment to God isn't just like that. It's what your heart tells you; it's what you want to do FOR Him.

But I don't think you guys will understand.

Misheard words, misunderstood meanings, and now, mistakes and arguments. That seems to be a lovely cycle right now.

Gosh how I wish that could change.

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Argh. I really need to get into muggermode.

And now for a sentimental post. You know how we always ask "why me?"? "Why did I have to be placed with this lousy group?" "What did I do to deserve this?"

Well; why not you?

(:

Youtube irritates me.

And it isn't only because of the "Embedding disabled by request". I think a Nigahiga quote is highly in order here?

"If anything, it's free publicity! So you're WELCOME."

Bleah, you know.

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PMC Cup coming up immediately after exams! Things are looking good for WTFC this year :D

I went to the psychiatrist today.

HA how many blogs can have that line on them? But it was really pointless, in my opinion. I'm obviously not mentally ill, so the "doctor" couldn't do anything except agree completely with my dad and suggest a psychologist to unlock my gray matter. And he was making all sorts of insinuations and jumped conclusions like "my parents always acknowledge when something is good" and "you aren't open to suggestions and help" because "you don't think you have a problem".

Hello? Knock knock, if I felt I didn't have a problem I wouldn't even be THERE to see you, would I! So yes, I acknowledge that sometimes I might not be able to keep my temper in check, and I might show some irritation. And therefore I went to see you. But some help you were. And if I felt I was perfectly fine I wouldn't be making any effort at all to change right!

Well you're wrong, because anybody who knows me will tell you that I am putting effort into the work of changing. So there you are, wrong on two counts. Don't doctors ever learn how to read between the lines?

And what's a psychologist going to do? He wasn't even able to answer that question, except telling me he'll help me understand my emotions better. Oh wow just what I was looking for!

And he said that I looked pissed off! Great observation, my good man. Of course I was irritated and kind of angry, because he just kept on agreeing with my dad even though I did point out his irrationalities. Not to mention his agreement that my arguments were right, but that they didn't help. Context is ever-important in psychology, I think?

It's over anyway. And one good thing came out -- I found out that I started reading books out loud at age 4. :D That is pretty cool.

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Mousehunt is kinda sad, but since it only takes a millisecond every fifteen minutes, why not give it a shot.

Other than that amusing psychiatrist session today, it was pretty darn mundane. RE Congress was nothing extraordinary.

Back to mugging. I know this post is really boring, but what can I do?

Not my fault it's exams yo.

How did they ever find out? If I find the leak, I'm going to stifle it. For good.

Damn.

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Studystudystudy.

Okay now a post to do our 100% Literature performance justice.

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To be honest I really don't know what to write for it! O_O

So I shall just upload pictures. HAHA. But the feeling of getting 1st place seriously is wonderful. Just before the results came out I was really nervous. I know, we did really well and whatever we got would still be a great result, but who doesn't want to win?

So much time and effort was put into this production. Time for rehearsals, time for constructing props, time for taking Jasdeep Jones videos... wait, that wasn't part of the process. But it all culminated in us getting into the final where the top play from each class met in a battle of wits and laughter.

It was a near flawless performance from our cast, minus the lighting glitch near the end of the show. Jasdeep was plain stupid, Wen Zheng was plain Wendy, Shien KT and WX were pure drama. Zac was plain suck-up, Josiah was plain pompous. Han Bin was well... Han Bin. And the audience loved it. Never-ending laughter accompanied Jasdeep's retardedness and WX's bumbling about.

I can safely say that I was confident we would do really well for the whole thing. We had Zac, Shien, Josiah, Wei Xuan, Kwun Tong, Jasdeep, Wendy, Han Bin. Which group wouldn't destroy the field with this kind of raw talent? Especially for our script, kudos to Shien Hian. And then there was the technical crew, Yee Shing and Yu Da.

Of course there was competition, in the form of Michael and Anurak and Daryl. They were strong opposition and like Mrs. Smith said, the standard this year was really very high. Which makes it all the more cool that we won. We were already celebrating when Anurak, then Daryl's groups were mentioned. And when Michael's play's name was announced, the whole group, and the whole of 4A, just stoned there for a second as we thought of the name. "Wait, that wasn't the name of our play!" slowly came to the forefront of our conscience and out we burst in celebration.

Way cool, definitely.

<3

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Taekwondo grading today was really smooth. Sparring was... heh. To say the least, I destroyed the guy. :D

But I'm stopping soon, sadly. Because One Voice calls. Really looking forward to the 24th of October; first Saturday after my exams!

But firstly it's back to school tomorrow. Have to get my head back on the ground and really start revising and mugging. Oh well. Such is the life of a secondary school student. I shan't complain.

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You know for some reason I miss you?

Don't read too much into this, it's just a random comment that's directed at a few people; nobody in particular.

(:

We won! :D 100% for Comedy Performance, yeah.

I'll post more about it tomorrow, I'm so tired.

Exams are coming soon! And with the end of them also comes One Voice. :D

Why do I feel you're different?

We're through to the finals! Of literature comedy performance. Which means a guaranteed 85% at least for this project. I like.

I was just wondering whether other people actually take my emotions into account whenever they say stuff. There I was, having the best soccer game on the right wing that I have EVER had, tricking people, sending in crosses, whatever. And I know sometimes my crosses are awry, or my shots are horribly misplaced, but you don't have to say that I'm screwing up completely right? Like, come on! My passing today was accurate, my rainbow and chops actually worked for once (in a blue moon) and wow, I actually created chances for our team.

So there wasn't any need at all to bring me crashing right back down to Earth by saying that I screwed up completely. Which I know I didn't. But sometimes you just want a form of acknowledgement that you're actually doing much better than you normally would, don't you.

Forget it, you're not worth my time for ranting and for blowing my top at. I can play right winger, and whatever you say isn't going to change anything at all.

In. Your. FACE.

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Grah I hate Messenger. It totally masks any form of emotion. 'Okay' on MSN is a word that's open to total interpretation. I could say you sound angry, or cynical, or sad, or whatever! Even with the context it's still hard to define emotions over MSN.

And then there's also extraneous acronyms such as 'rofl' and 'roflmao'. No, I do not want to know that you are rolling on the floor laughing your ass off. Why would I want to know that?! A 'haha' would suffice in expressing amusement. Or if there is overarching amusement, 'hahhahahahhahaha' or 'HAHAHAHHA' would suit the situation very very well.

:D

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I SO need to study. Like, red alert? ):

We did good today guys. And it isn't our fault our oral defense was kind of teared apart by someone who from our viewpoint, totally misunderstood the meaning of our play. Maybe it's our fault for not correcting that perception, but oh well. Our comedy is one to be proud of. And not just because Jasdeep's black, no, not at all.

When we do get in for the final performance on Saturday, we're going to KILL THEM ALL. STARTING WITH THE FAT ONE. (And of course, you all know who I'm referring to right now.)

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Rafflesian Spotlight auditions tomorrow omg! I've settled on You and Me by Lifehouse for the audition song. Sounds okay I guess? Let's hope my voice doesn't die tonight due to all the mad screaming just now.

Cause it's you and me,
and all of the people
with nothing to do,
nothing to lose;

Last day of DMP is tomorrow too! Time flies when you're having fun, doesn't it. Next week, it's back to mega mugging in preparation for end of years. Let's be grateful we don't have O levels. (:

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Is it a bad thing to have too many close friends who aren't that close to each other? Does it kind of cause you to tear yourself apart just to accommodate them? Or if you don't do that, does it mean you'll have to distance yourself from most of them except a few, as a natural and inadvertent reaction?

I don't know. But I really hope that isn't the case. And I hope I can manage them just as well. (: