Today was really nice. Although boring, because everyone left so early. I hope you guys had fun at Anberlin! Haha. Jon, Colleen, Chengyi. Grah I wish I could go watch them but oh well.
And grah, I can't go for uNite either. D: But oh well. It's not my fault I can't go, it's cause my parents find church events not worthwhile. How wrong they can be.
I don't have much to post today, but yesterday was cool!
Project Paperchain from 9 to 3! :D Like 12 of us just sitting in a room and being retarded and cutting paper. Lol!
And then taekwondo at night was quite epic (: First sparring session for me yo. I pulled off a 360 kick whee.
I'm looking forward tomorrow, going back to training since God knows how long, and then going to Tao Nan and Kai's house (I THINK). Hopefully. And then need to mug for math on Wednesday. Anybody wanna mug with me? HAHA.
No I was being totally serious about the mugging. Please do tell me (:
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Call My Name - Third Day (and we should totally take this song's advice sometimes)
(:
Third Day Lyrics – Call My Name
It’s been so long since
You felt like you were loved
So what went wrong
But do you know
There’s a place where you belong
Here in My Arms
Chorus
When you feel like you’re alone in your sadness
It seems like no one else in this whole world cares
And you want to get away from the madness
You just call My name and I’ll be there
You just call My name and I’ll be there
The pain inside
Has erased your hope for love
Soon you will find
That I’ll give you all
That your heart could ever want
And so much more
Chorus
When you feel like you’re alone in your sadness
It seems like no one else in this whole world cares
And you want to get away from the madness
You just Call My Name and I’ll be there
You just Call My Name and I’ll be there
You just Call My Name
Call My name say it now
I want you to never doubt
The love I have for you is so alive
Call My name say it now
I want you to never doubt
The love I have for you is so alive
You just Call My Name
The love I have for you is so alive
The love I have for you is so alive
You just Call My Name
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Yes, call His name when I'm in trouble. That's the way. (:
But haiz, it's still going on and I don't know how to change it. I don't want to ask because it might seem so desperate. I don't know.
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Okay I'm off!
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
What in the world is wrong with me? Why can't I play the stupid exam pieces properly during ANY lesson?
It's not as though I don't practice at all. It's not as though I don't give a shit about trying to do well. Because I do, and it does show when I sound perfectly okay when running through the piece during practice. I may not be the most hardcore or the most stringent pianist when I'm doing my practice, but the fact is that I do practice, albeit maybe not as much as some other people.
But apparently it never is the same; the stress factor is the whole difference between a piano class/exam, and a practice session.
Seriously.
So what happened today was that after a wonderful game of soccer with Han Bin and the NY people, Jasdeep, Wen Zheng and Suwe (in which I daresay I didn't do too badly as goalkeeper), I went to church to see if anyone was there. And because nobody was there and my piano class was coming up, I decided to go to the music room, take out my book, and plop myself in front of the piano. And when I practiced, it was FINE. The whole rationale behind going to the music room was to check if my pieces sounded okay, because I didn't put in that much practice yesterday!
And yes, they sounded fine. So I went for piano class after that. And that's when Armageddon came.
Firstly, the stupid bane of scales, B Minor sixths apart. Which idiot made such a scale?! So yeah, I realize that I'm completely crap at it. It's okay, I'll just go home and practice. Yes, I got a bit frustrated at that, because I used to be able to do it fine. But I haven't been practising scales that much, so it's understandable.
But then we move onto Chopin's Nocturne in F Minor. And that was supposedly my best piece, the piece that would bring up my overall score, the piece that I was confident would be fine, even if the other two were complete bullcrap. I was wrong.
It was complete bullcrap, and I didn't even find out if the other two were as bad, because I didn't even get past it. I was stumbling and slipping and hitting the wrong notes and getting the interpretation wrong. And I slowly got more and more frustrated with myself. Wouldn't you? If you knew your free kick was nearly perfect and you continually missed and missed and missed time after time, surely you'll start to lose it. If you know your math is great, but for some reason or another during a test you cannot do a single question, would you not be frustrated?
Same story there. I slowly got more and more frustrated. And I was trying to let it off slowly. My forearm was tight and tense, I clenched and unclenched my fist in a useless bid to relax it. I take deep breaths and I try and focus. But over and over again, history repeats itself. I couldn't play it right. A note wrong here, dynamics messed up there.
And I don't know why people say "You cannot show your anger/frustration in front of other people. You must keep control of yourself." Why would my anger and frustration affect other people? It's about me. I know this sounds so damn selfish, but it is about ME. I am angry at MYSELF for not being able to play the piece properly. I find it cathartic to express my anger, and by expressing it and chilling for awhile, everything goes back to normal.
But the catalyst in this reaction was my overeager teacher, who kept on telling me to repeat that part, and so I did. I repeated it once, I got it wrong once. I repeated it twice, I got it wrong twice. I repeated it thrice.. you get the picture.
So she suggests that I try another piece. Bad move; it was a totally different feel, it was a totally different piece. And my frustration couldn't translate itself into the music. Which made it horrible. To her credit, she told me to stop and come back next week, and she'll make up the lost time.
But the way she said it, was so extremely condescending. As though she understands how I feel. As though she could control herself easily. As though it's no big deal when you're faced with failure after failure after failure, even though you try your best to get past it.
I leave. I really couldn't take anymore.
And as I walked away from the door, it continued building up. Slowly, surely, until at the lift lobby I sort of lost it. I called my dad, told him that I was in a bad mood because piano class was complete bullshit, and not to ask me why I'm in a bad mood when I get home. He hangs up on me. And when I call again, he says to me in this irritated voice, "Bad mood then bad mood la! What can I do about it?"
Some help you are, fool.
At least I knew someone out there would be able to empathize, would be able to just listen and absorb my mindless ranting. Thank you, Rachel. (I really did try some of the methods you told me about, like putting weight on your hips. It relaxes your back, and that's the main muscle in your body). I'd put the whole event past me already after calming down. I didn't want to talk about it or think about it, I just wanted to look forward and do my best for the remaining time.
And when I go home, my mother comes out of the toilet. Asks me, "What happened?" So I tell her that piano was lousy. Period. She says in her irritating voice, "NO, you come back here now. WHAT HAPPENED?" So I tell her again, very patiently, that piano was lousy. Kinda obvious that I didn't want to talk about it already. But she continued prying, and prying, and prying. "Why was piano lousy?" "Do you think if you practiced enough this would happen?" "If you practice enough when you play for teacher it will be perfect!" "Why must you go to church before going to class? Why cannot come home first?"
Because I wanted to relax, because you weren't expecting me home yet. And I did practice in church. I did.
But I kind of didn't want to talk about it anymore. She continues prying and I just answer her, but the anger is rebuilding itself inside. Until I can't take it anymore and I just start ranting. What the hell is wrong with going to church? There's a world of difference between practising and performing, and I haven't bridged that chasm just as yet. As she doesn't understand ANYTHING about piano at all. All she understands is that if teacher gives bad comments, it's bad. She doesn't understand. Practising all day long does NOT give you perfection. It is not the same as academics. The difference here is the feeling, the emotions behind the two. Academics involves none at all, music involves every shred of emotion you can possibly generate.
And the way she was scolding me totally gave me the impression that she cared about herself and her money more than she cared for my learning piano! That was honestly what jarred me, jarred me hard. And her comments are all so caustic, all so derogatory, all so derisive, all so destructive. There's two kinds of criticism -- destructive, and constructive. No prizes for guessing what her kind was.
When I really decided that I'd had enough, that she didn't know anything about what she was talking about,
"SHUT UP."
Yes, I told her to shut up. And I continued to explain why I said that, because she didn't understand anything. My teacher said that I was scary, because I was clenching my fist in front of her. As I said earlier, I clenched my fist to try and get rid of the tension. And her oversensitivity, her overreaction, her EXTRAness just pushed me further away from the cliff. Because her way of "trying to solve the problem" was only making it worse, and was only beating down my confidence. Do they actually believe that I would WANT to throw away all the money they've invested in the piano? Do they actually believe that I don't CARE? They made it sound so much like they only cared about themselves, about their own money. And that was so not the point. They made it sound like they knew how I should be practising, that even if I were angry and frustrated and red in the face, I should continue, because it builds character, because it helps. IT DOESN'T. Not a single bit. You should walk away; you should calm down. Because then you'd have a clear mind, you'd be able to chill and play the piece with the correct temperament.
To me, you NEED to release your anger, you cannot let it fester inside you and eat your heart up from the inside out. It just makes the feeling worse. And,
You don't need to know what caused the problem to solved it, honestly. You don't need to know whether I was tired, or whether my muscles aches, or whether I had a bad day in school. What you need to know is that through encouragement and through support ANYTHING at all is possible.
And sadly, although that's so important, so imperative in a family, it just isn't there for me. And that's why I turn to people whom I know can listen and can understand, people whom I have faith in.
But sometimes those people fail to live up to your expectations. You sms them, asking them if they're free for you to rant. You thought they were close enough to you to care about your mental well-being. Well, for this one, apparently not. I don't know what to do.
But that's only one person. Moving on.
I'm even more worried about uNite. I'm worried that I'll be left behind, once again, and every other member of the youth ministry will be having a night of fun and fellowship while I'll be doing absolutely nothing at all. I don't want to miss it. I really don't. I want to go. I WANT TO GO. God please be gracious and convince my parents. Please. I'm desperate. I really am.
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Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."
But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
But the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high
from on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me
But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
The Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Cause Jesus you are the Voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you are the Voice of truth
That was totally apt.
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Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. - Isaiah 41:10
Thank you Lord, thank you SO MUCH for the reassurances you give me, this self-denying child who thinks that the task is too great. Because You are my strength, and for You, anything is possible. I will win, I will triumph, because that's what the Voice of Truth is saying. That with Your help, I can do anything for Your glory. Especially with the piano.
Lord please be with me. Help me understand why my parents are so inept at trying to support me and encourage me, why they must resort to threats and ultimatums and insults and derisions to try and spur me on. Because I can't take so much, and for those to come from my parents only makes it so much worse.
But Lord I thank you so much for the friends you have blessed me with. Friends who will be there walking down the road with me no matter what disasters befall. It is so heartwarming.
And Father, help me understand how some peoples' minds work, how they perceive me as a person. I want to be able to empathize, to not cross any boundaries. They might already find me a nuisance, they might think I'm irritating. But Lord I pray that they won't have that kind of perception of me Lord, it means so much to me if they do. D:
Lord, I love you. You know that Father. Don't forsake me now. Bless me with the ability to do well for my piano, through practice. Teach me how to control my anger, to temper my will, so that I won't be affected too much by the things happening around me. At the end of the day, they all fade to dust, Father, and only You remain.
So wrap me in Your embrace, comfort me Lord. And remind me how to be Godly, and to share Your burden in this world.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
It's not as though I don't practice at all. It's not as though I don't give a shit about trying to do well. Because I do, and it does show when I sound perfectly okay when running through the piece during practice. I may not be the most hardcore or the most stringent pianist when I'm doing my practice, but the fact is that I do practice, albeit maybe not as much as some other people.
But apparently it never is the same; the stress factor is the whole difference between a piano class/exam, and a practice session.
Seriously.
So what happened today was that after a wonderful game of soccer with Han Bin and the NY people, Jasdeep, Wen Zheng and Suwe (in which I daresay I didn't do too badly as goalkeeper), I went to church to see if anyone was there. And because nobody was there and my piano class was coming up, I decided to go to the music room, take out my book, and plop myself in front of the piano. And when I practiced, it was FINE. The whole rationale behind going to the music room was to check if my pieces sounded okay, because I didn't put in that much practice yesterday!
And yes, they sounded fine. So I went for piano class after that. And that's when Armageddon came.
Firstly, the stupid bane of scales, B Minor sixths apart. Which idiot made such a scale?! So yeah, I realize that I'm completely crap at it. It's okay, I'll just go home and practice. Yes, I got a bit frustrated at that, because I used to be able to do it fine. But I haven't been practising scales that much, so it's understandable.
But then we move onto Chopin's Nocturne in F Minor. And that was supposedly my best piece, the piece that would bring up my overall score, the piece that I was confident would be fine, even if the other two were complete bullcrap. I was wrong.
It was complete bullcrap, and I didn't even find out if the other two were as bad, because I didn't even get past it. I was stumbling and slipping and hitting the wrong notes and getting the interpretation wrong. And I slowly got more and more frustrated with myself. Wouldn't you? If you knew your free kick was nearly perfect and you continually missed and missed and missed time after time, surely you'll start to lose it. If you know your math is great, but for some reason or another during a test you cannot do a single question, would you not be frustrated?
Same story there. I slowly got more and more frustrated. And I was trying to let it off slowly. My forearm was tight and tense, I clenched and unclenched my fist in a useless bid to relax it. I take deep breaths and I try and focus. But over and over again, history repeats itself. I couldn't play it right. A note wrong here, dynamics messed up there.
And I don't know why people say "You cannot show your anger/frustration in front of other people. You must keep control of yourself." Why would my anger and frustration affect other people? It's about me. I know this sounds so damn selfish, but it is about ME. I am angry at MYSELF for not being able to play the piece properly. I find it cathartic to express my anger, and by expressing it and chilling for awhile, everything goes back to normal.
But the catalyst in this reaction was my overeager teacher, who kept on telling me to repeat that part, and so I did. I repeated it once, I got it wrong once. I repeated it twice, I got it wrong twice. I repeated it thrice.. you get the picture.
So she suggests that I try another piece. Bad move; it was a totally different feel, it was a totally different piece. And my frustration couldn't translate itself into the music. Which made it horrible. To her credit, she told me to stop and come back next week, and she'll make up the lost time.
But the way she said it, was so extremely condescending. As though she understands how I feel. As though she could control herself easily. As though it's no big deal when you're faced with failure after failure after failure, even though you try your best to get past it.
I leave. I really couldn't take anymore.
And as I walked away from the door, it continued building up. Slowly, surely, until at the lift lobby I sort of lost it. I called my dad, told him that I was in a bad mood because piano class was complete bullshit, and not to ask me why I'm in a bad mood when I get home. He hangs up on me. And when I call again, he says to me in this irritated voice, "Bad mood then bad mood la! What can I do about it?"
Some help you are, fool.
At least I knew someone out there would be able to empathize, would be able to just listen and absorb my mindless ranting. Thank you, Rachel. (I really did try some of the methods you told me about, like putting weight on your hips. It relaxes your back, and that's the main muscle in your body). I'd put the whole event past me already after calming down. I didn't want to talk about it or think about it, I just wanted to look forward and do my best for the remaining time.
And when I go home, my mother comes out of the toilet. Asks me, "What happened?" So I tell her that piano was lousy. Period. She says in her irritating voice, "NO, you come back here now. WHAT HAPPENED?" So I tell her again, very patiently, that piano was lousy. Kinda obvious that I didn't want to talk about it already. But she continued prying, and prying, and prying. "Why was piano lousy?" "Do you think if you practiced enough this would happen?" "If you practice enough when you play for teacher it will be perfect!" "Why must you go to church before going to class? Why cannot come home first?"
Because I wanted to relax, because you weren't expecting me home yet. And I did practice in church. I did.
But I kind of didn't want to talk about it anymore. She continues prying and I just answer her, but the anger is rebuilding itself inside. Until I can't take it anymore and I just start ranting. What the hell is wrong with going to church? There's a world of difference between practising and performing, and I haven't bridged that chasm just as yet. As she doesn't understand ANYTHING about piano at all. All she understands is that if teacher gives bad comments, it's bad. She doesn't understand. Practising all day long does NOT give you perfection. It is not the same as academics. The difference here is the feeling, the emotions behind the two. Academics involves none at all, music involves every shred of emotion you can possibly generate.
And the way she was scolding me totally gave me the impression that she cared about herself and her money more than she cared for my learning piano! That was honestly what jarred me, jarred me hard. And her comments are all so caustic, all so derogatory, all so derisive, all so destructive. There's two kinds of criticism -- destructive, and constructive. No prizes for guessing what her kind was.
When I really decided that I'd had enough, that she didn't know anything about what she was talking about,
"SHUT UP."
Yes, I told her to shut up. And I continued to explain why I said that, because she didn't understand anything. My teacher said that I was scary, because I was clenching my fist in front of her. As I said earlier, I clenched my fist to try and get rid of the tension. And her oversensitivity, her overreaction, her EXTRAness just pushed me further away from the cliff. Because her way of "trying to solve the problem" was only making it worse, and was only beating down my confidence. Do they actually believe that I would WANT to throw away all the money they've invested in the piano? Do they actually believe that I don't CARE? They made it sound so much like they only cared about themselves, about their own money. And that was so not the point. They made it sound like they knew how I should be practising, that even if I were angry and frustrated and red in the face, I should continue, because it builds character, because it helps. IT DOESN'T. Not a single bit. You should walk away; you should calm down. Because then you'd have a clear mind, you'd be able to chill and play the piece with the correct temperament.
To me, you NEED to release your anger, you cannot let it fester inside you and eat your heart up from the inside out. It just makes the feeling worse. And,
You don't need to know what caused the problem to solved it, honestly. You don't need to know whether I was tired, or whether my muscles aches, or whether I had a bad day in school. What you need to know is that through encouragement and through support ANYTHING at all is possible.
And sadly, although that's so important, so imperative in a family, it just isn't there for me. And that's why I turn to people whom I know can listen and can understand, people whom I have faith in.
But sometimes those people fail to live up to your expectations. You sms them, asking them if they're free for you to rant. You thought they were close enough to you to care about your mental well-being. Well, for this one, apparently not. I don't know what to do.
But that's only one person. Moving on.
I'm even more worried about uNite. I'm worried that I'll be left behind, once again, and every other member of the youth ministry will be having a night of fun and fellowship while I'll be doing absolutely nothing at all. I don't want to miss it. I really don't. I want to go. I WANT TO GO. God please be gracious and convince my parents. Please. I'm desperate. I really am.
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Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."
But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
But the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high
from on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me
But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
The Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Cause Jesus you are the Voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you are the Voice of truth
That was totally apt.
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Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. - Isaiah 41:10
Thank you Lord, thank you SO MUCH for the reassurances you give me, this self-denying child who thinks that the task is too great. Because You are my strength, and for You, anything is possible. I will win, I will triumph, because that's what the Voice of Truth is saying. That with Your help, I can do anything for Your glory. Especially with the piano.
Lord please be with me. Help me understand why my parents are so inept at trying to support me and encourage me, why they must resort to threats and ultimatums and insults and derisions to try and spur me on. Because I can't take so much, and for those to come from my parents only makes it so much worse.
But Lord I thank you so much for the friends you have blessed me with. Friends who will be there walking down the road with me no matter what disasters befall. It is so heartwarming.
And Father, help me understand how some peoples' minds work, how they perceive me as a person. I want to be able to empathize, to not cross any boundaries. They might already find me a nuisance, they might think I'm irritating. But Lord I pray that they won't have that kind of perception of me Lord, it means so much to me if they do. D:
Lord, I love you. You know that Father. Don't forsake me now. Bless me with the ability to do well for my piano, through practice. Teach me how to control my anger, to temper my will, so that I won't be affected too much by the things happening around me. At the end of the day, they all fade to dust, Father, and only You remain.
So wrap me in Your embrace, comfort me Lord. And remind me how to be Godly, and to share Your burden in this world.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Okay, so this is a quote from Ms. Huang, regarding that test on the wonderful subject which explains why magnets are generated from electric currents flowing through a coil. Now, she says this in reply to the question "How hard is today's test compared to the practice paper?"
"Umm... about the same, yeah."
YEAH RIGHT YO. It was how brilliantly difficult, please?
So yeah once again I'm not expecting much for that test.
But I did get 32/40 for my Biology CCT, which is barely a 4.0, which isn't good enough. D: I need to solidify my highest chance of a 4.0 before the EOY exams gosh.
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Tomorrow's teachers day celebration. And it ends about 11. And I have training after that, which I really want to go for, but I HAVE NO DAMN SHOES.
Why would I have no damn shoes! Firstly no money, secondly, some idiot stole my cool black silver pair. WHY.
Irritating fools grah.
And then after that I have absolutely nothing to do. I don't believe this, do you? SOMEONE GO WATCH A MOVIE WITH ME OR SOMETHINGGGGG.
Heh.
At least I've got plans for Saturday and Monday. (:
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But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "Do not be afraid"
and the Voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
And yes, I will.
"Umm... about the same, yeah."
YEAH RIGHT YO. It was how brilliantly difficult, please?
So yeah once again I'm not expecting much for that test.
But I did get 32/40 for my Biology CCT, which is barely a 4.0, which isn't good enough. D: I need to solidify my highest chance of a 4.0 before the EOY exams gosh.
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Tomorrow's teachers day celebration. And it ends about 11. And I have training after that, which I really want to go for, but I HAVE NO DAMN SHOES.
Why would I have no damn shoes! Firstly no money, secondly, some idiot stole my cool black silver pair. WHY.
Irritating fools grah.
And then after that I have absolutely nothing to do. I don't believe this, do you? SOMEONE GO WATCH A MOVIE WITH ME OR SOMETHINGGGGG.
Heh.
At least I've got plans for Saturday and Monday. (:
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But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "Do not be afraid"
and the Voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth
And yes, I will.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Today was back to normal.
Had to wake up at the ungodly hour defined as 5am to go to school and make announcement for Teacher's Day. So I was drop dead tired on the bus. But surprisingly I didn't feel sleepy during a single lesson! ;D
And photo taking was awesomeeeee. We're a bunch of gangstas yo.
Mr. Koh so cool! Wear school uniform for informal shot. HAHA. You rock la, sir.
And then soccer after school was quite fun, in the pouring rain. Hey, I pulled off two good bicycle kicks okay. And then, when I decided that I'd gotten my bum wet enough, I left and went to LZ's house to utterly mug physics so that I'll ace the test tomorrow.
I hope.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to tomorrow and the rest of the term. It's going to be a blast, I think.
Cheers, you.
Go check my Facebook for photos from today. (:
Had to wake up at the ungodly hour defined as 5am to go to school and make announcement for Teacher's Day. So I was drop dead tired on the bus. But surprisingly I didn't feel sleepy during a single lesson! ;D
And photo taking was awesomeeeee. We're a bunch of gangstas yo.
Mr. Koh so cool! Wear school uniform for informal shot. HAHA. You rock la, sir.
And then soccer after school was quite fun, in the pouring rain. Hey, I pulled off two good bicycle kicks okay. And then, when I decided that I'd gotten my bum wet enough, I left and went to LZ's house to utterly mug physics so that I'll ace the test tomorrow.
I hope.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to tomorrow and the rest of the term. It's going to be a blast, I think.
Cheers, you.
Go check my Facebook for photos from today. (:
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Chinese today wasn't too bad, after all.
But I'm not expecting that much, because apparently a lot of people got differing answers, and well, there can only be one correct one. But I think I did okay for the essays, which were my stumbling block during the mid years. It's all up to God and the teachers now.
27 Which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28 And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.
29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'
32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
- Matthew 6:27-28
I love that verse, yeah.
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Miracles of the Canal was epically cool. And soccer after that was rubbish. Absolute rubbish. Oh, so I made a couple of good saves here and there, but in the end, the overall performance utterly sucked. (:
Maybe it's cause I was tired. You know, I was very nearly falling asleep halfway through Paper 2. BEFORE the paper was completed.
Argh, I really should sleep early someday. Tomorrow have to wake up at 5 some more, because I have to publicize teacher's day. =\
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Cheng Yi don't move to LiveJournal! D:
Blogger is so much better (or maybe not).
But don't move!
Lol.
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And East to West by Casting Crowns is the best. Go listen to it. You know, I'll save you the trouble. Listen to it here.
There you go!
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Two more days to a four day break, I can't wait oh I can't wait. (:
But I'm not expecting that much, because apparently a lot of people got differing answers, and well, there can only be one correct one. But I think I did okay for the essays, which were my stumbling block during the mid years. It's all up to God and the teachers now.
27 Which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28 And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.
29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'
32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
- Matthew 6:27-28
I love that verse, yeah.
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Miracles of the Canal was epically cool. And soccer after that was rubbish. Absolute rubbish. Oh, so I made a couple of good saves here and there, but in the end, the overall performance utterly sucked. (:
Maybe it's cause I was tired. You know, I was very nearly falling asleep halfway through Paper 2. BEFORE the paper was completed.
Argh, I really should sleep early someday. Tomorrow have to wake up at 5 some more, because I have to publicize teacher's day. =\
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Cheng Yi don't move to LiveJournal! D:
Blogger is so much better (or maybe not).
But don't move!
Lol.
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And East to West by Casting Crowns is the best. Go listen to it. You know, I'll save you the trouble. Listen to it here.
There you go!
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Two more days to a four day break, I can't wait oh I can't wait. (:
Monday, August 24, 2009
Chinese, what's that?
Huh? Chinese? What?
OH. It's that irritating language by which we have to learn mostly superficial flourishes of speech and weird words and then are tested on how many good words we can remember.
It's that nice little pain that continuously stabs you up your posterior. Also know as a pain in the ass.
It's that thing that everyone is really worrying about and mugging for, although the eternal argument is that you can't mug for Chinese. What a lie. Look who did thirty cloze passages over the weekend please.
And so, tomorrow comes the day. The biggest day in my Chinese-utilizing lousy life, at least until O-levels arrive. Grah.
And then we have Physics on Thursday. When will this end!
Oh right, in two weeks time. At least we can slack on Friday and next Monday and the following Friday. SO BE JEALOUS.
I didn't really mean that, so let's be encouraging instead.
JIAYOU PEOPLES.
;D
OH. It's that irritating language by which we have to learn mostly superficial flourishes of speech and weird words and then are tested on how many good words we can remember.
It's that nice little pain that continuously stabs you up your posterior. Also know as a pain in the ass.
It's that thing that everyone is really worrying about and mugging for, although the eternal argument is that you can't mug for Chinese. What a lie. Look who did thirty cloze passages over the weekend please.
And so, tomorrow comes the day. The biggest day in my Chinese-utilizing lousy life, at least until O-levels arrive. Grah.
And then we have Physics on Thursday. When will this end!
Oh right, in two weeks time. At least we can slack on Friday and next Monday and the following Friday. SO BE JEALOUS.
I didn't really mean that, so let's be encouraging instead.
JIAYOU PEOPLES.
;D
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Rawr. Why can't they just leave it at "He's gone to a friend's place to study and we're happy for him"?!?!
Lol. Today was fun. And I can't cram any more physics into my brain. I'm so proud of my self luh! Did like, 30+ cloze passages in two days. ;D That's more than I'll ever do haha.
Back to school tomorrow haiz. =\
Oh well.
Bye, talk to you later.
Expectations are bitches, I tell you. So I'm not expecting anything for Chinese anymore.
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Hey you guys. Someone's irritated by your antics. And I know this is really very vague, but yeah go figure. Something about groups. ;D
I love making people think.
Lol. Today was fun. And I can't cram any more physics into my brain. I'm so proud of my self luh! Did like, 30+ cloze passages in two days. ;D That's more than I'll ever do haha.
Back to school tomorrow haiz. =\
Oh well.
Bye, talk to you later.
Expectations are bitches, I tell you. So I'm not expecting anything for Chinese anymore.
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Hey you guys. Someone's irritated by your antics. And I know this is really very vague, but yeah go figure. Something about groups. ;D
I love making people think.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Whee. I am filled with this burning desire to be able to do a split. So support me. xD
Piano completely sucked today, please. For some weird reason my fingers wouldn't do a single thing my brain told them. It's like there this blockage in my system that warps almost every command and makes me slip up maybe hmm... a billion times in one song? Grah. Bad feeling about this. Could be because of my sleeping posture. Remind me to sleep with a pillow under my head from now on please.
Then I went to the EXPO Library book sale, which was epically fail, because I found TWO whole books that I liked. And so I dumped them with my mom before going to catch a bus to go to church.
Chinese completely sucks. I mean, it certainly has its uses, like when you're talking to a taxi driver whose English is crap, but still I'd rather just use it regularly and basically without the requirement of mugging all the mega cheem words and cloze passages. I mean, what are the chances we'll be using them in the future? Unless we're talking to Cheenamen, which is quite likely, because they're taking over the world. Heh.
Still, I hope I don't destroy my EOY on Tuesday TOO badly. I still have something to try and uphold and that's my GPA. Chinese is already a 2.8, so yeah, must do everything I can to not make it go down. And falling under "everything I can" there is doing 50-odd cloze passages over the weekend! Whoop dee doo.
Please tell me you noticed the sarcasm? Because if you didn't, you're one slow person (:
Just joking.
Taekwondo was surprisingly refreshing. I haven't sweated that much during taekwondo class is a veryvery long time. But I haven't actually sparred with anybody, still looking forward to that.
Tomorrow's another day of mega studying after the really needed time with God and friends. Although studying is with friends, but yeah. It's not the same thing. ;D
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And so continues the repetitive dance of life flashing past our eyes.
But God is there to make it all the more cooler.
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I just had to repost this video after reading Cheng Yi's blog.
no weeping
no hurt or pain
no suffering
you hold me now
you hold me now
no darkness
no sick or lame
no hiding
YOU HOLD ME NOW
YOU HOLD ME NOW;
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And a short excerpt I came across surfing Youtube.
As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. -Psalm 103:12
Jesus only you know just how far the east is from the west.
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To God be the Glory.
Yeah.
Piano completely sucked today, please. For some weird reason my fingers wouldn't do a single thing my brain told them. It's like there this blockage in my system that warps almost every command and makes me slip up maybe hmm... a billion times in one song? Grah. Bad feeling about this. Could be because of my sleeping posture. Remind me to sleep with a pillow under my head from now on please.
Then I went to the EXPO Library book sale, which was epically fail, because I found TWO whole books that I liked. And so I dumped them with my mom before going to catch a bus to go to church.
Chinese completely sucks. I mean, it certainly has its uses, like when you're talking to a taxi driver whose English is crap, but still I'd rather just use it regularly and basically without the requirement of mugging all the mega cheem words and cloze passages. I mean, what are the chances we'll be using them in the future? Unless we're talking to Cheenamen, which is quite likely, because they're taking over the world. Heh.
Still, I hope I don't destroy my EOY on Tuesday TOO badly. I still have something to try and uphold and that's my GPA. Chinese is already a 2.8, so yeah, must do everything I can to not make it go down. And falling under "everything I can" there is doing 50-odd cloze passages over the weekend! Whoop dee doo.
Please tell me you noticed the sarcasm? Because if you didn't, you're one slow person (:
Just joking.
Taekwondo was surprisingly refreshing. I haven't sweated that much during taekwondo class is a veryvery long time. But I haven't actually sparred with anybody, still looking forward to that.
Tomorrow's another day of mega studying after the really needed time with God and friends. Although studying is with friends, but yeah. It's not the same thing. ;D
---
And so continues the repetitive dance of life flashing past our eyes.
But God is there to make it all the more cooler.
---
I just had to repost this video after reading Cheng Yi's blog.
no weeping
no hurt or pain
no suffering
you hold me now
you hold me now
no darkness
no sick or lame
no hiding
YOU HOLD ME NOW
YOU HOLD ME NOW;
---
And a short excerpt I came across surfing Youtube.
As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. -Psalm 103:12
Jesus only you know just how far the east is from the west.
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To God be the Glory.
Yeah.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Grah I have a bad feeling about this. I'm super worried about literature tomorrow but I think I'll just smoke as best as I can. Most likely it'll be about human nature? Seeing as how we've been covering that topic so in-depth recently. I just hope it'll be a bit more narrow a scope so that I can't move too much off topic. God give me strength.
I'll need to reread/reskim through Gulliver's Travels. At least tomorrow's going to be a short day with soccer galore. And studying after that.
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Mentioning studying;
It's the exam season now! Week 8, week 9, week 10. So everyone's more than a bit stressed and all. Especially O level prelim people, and higher chinese RI people.
And well, we can't do much about it; it's part and parcel of our monotonous and uni-directional life as students. So I guess it's best that we try and make the most out of it?
I'm trying to convince myself here as much as I'm trying to convince other people heh. But yeah it works all ways I guess.
And I feel quite satisfied with my recent performance academically, what with Biology and math and stuff being slowly inched up the grade ladder. So I just hope I can keep up the hard work and maybe just put in a little more energy.
So, literature tomorrow, physics next week, higher chinese EOY next week. I am going to finish every single cloze passage practice book I have by Monday.
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Not to mention piano!
It really is such a joy when you hear yourself making wonderful sounds through the piano. But sometimes you just don't have the heart to practice that much, either because you think you're too busy, or you're too lazy, or just too plain tired.
No excuses though. Finding time is an art and I plan to master it.
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I'll talk to you later, gonna go play the piano and not expect anything too much.
Expectation is a bitch. ;D
I'll need to reread/reskim through Gulliver's Travels. At least tomorrow's going to be a short day with soccer galore. And studying after that.
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Mentioning studying;
It's the exam season now! Week 8, week 9, week 10. So everyone's more than a bit stressed and all. Especially O level prelim people, and higher chinese RI people.
And well, we can't do much about it; it's part and parcel of our monotonous and uni-directional life as students. So I guess it's best that we try and make the most out of it?
I'm trying to convince myself here as much as I'm trying to convince other people heh. But yeah it works all ways I guess.
And I feel quite satisfied with my recent performance academically, what with Biology and math and stuff being slowly inched up the grade ladder. So I just hope I can keep up the hard work and maybe just put in a little more energy.
So, literature tomorrow, physics next week, higher chinese EOY next week. I am going to finish every single cloze passage practice book I have by Monday.
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Not to mention piano!
It really is such a joy when you hear yourself making wonderful sounds through the piano. But sometimes you just don't have the heart to practice that much, either because you think you're too busy, or you're too lazy, or just too plain tired.
No excuses though. Finding time is an art and I plan to master it.
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I'll talk to you later, gonna go play the piano and not expect anything too much.
Expectation is a bitch. ;D
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Wow. I realise I study so much more than usual when I don't have a computer near me. HAHA. Like at other people's places. ;D
So I'm glad to say that studying science today at Cheng Yi's house was extremely productive. (:
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Grah I WANT TO GROW TALLER. I'll never make it as a keeper if I stay at this height. Stupid failed genes or stupid failed backbone. Just ten more cm! Then it'll be nice.
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I can't wait for the weekend. Two more days! But within those two days, the banes of a literature time-based essay, and a biology quiz. Although I'm pretty sure biology won't be screwed up; literature is a wholly different ball game.
Not to mention Chinese EOYs next Tuesday! Argh I really hope I can pull my grade up; it's like the culmination of every single practice I've done. Irritating compositions had better not fail this time.
Expectations are bitches. How true.
You O level people out there who think you've screwed up your English oral stop thinking that way! It can't be that bad. (: Look forward, not backward.
I have a new motto! By Winston Churchill -- success is not final, failure is not fatal; it is the courage to continue that matters.
And in the end, it's the journey that matters.
SO TAKE HEART! Have faith.
God will light the way.
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Work hard okay, peoples. Time flies by way too fast for us to while away on retarded things.
every memory of walking out the front door;
Treasure it while it lasts, because once it's gone, it's gone. And you'll be forced to say goodbye.
So I'm glad to say that studying science today at Cheng Yi's house was extremely productive. (:
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Grah I WANT TO GROW TALLER. I'll never make it as a keeper if I stay at this height. Stupid failed genes or stupid failed backbone. Just ten more cm! Then it'll be nice.
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I can't wait for the weekend. Two more days! But within those two days, the banes of a literature time-based essay, and a biology quiz. Although I'm pretty sure biology won't be screwed up; literature is a wholly different ball game.
Not to mention Chinese EOYs next Tuesday! Argh I really hope I can pull my grade up; it's like the culmination of every single practice I've done. Irritating compositions had better not fail this time.
Expectations are bitches. How true.
You O level people out there who think you've screwed up your English oral stop thinking that way! It can't be that bad. (: Look forward, not backward.
I have a new motto! By Winston Churchill -- success is not final, failure is not fatal; it is the courage to continue that matters.
And in the end, it's the journey that matters.
SO TAKE HEART! Have faith.
God will light the way.
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Work hard okay, peoples. Time flies by way too fast for us to while away on retarded things.
every memory of walking out the front door;
Treasure it while it lasts, because once it's gone, it's gone. And you'll be forced to say goodbye.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Rawr. Why can't they just let me do what I want without complaining. It's not like I'm doing random stuff and wasting my time! I'm actually doing homework at their house. Or, in the case of tomorrow, studying. ):
Give me some leeway luh, stop hounding me about everything I do. I know it's a prerequisite to your job, but you don't need to take it too far.
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Today was fun. I got 14/16 for math TA! Super happy now my math is improving, finally. It's waited long enough. Assembly was wayyyyyyy cool. Everyone who doesn't agree with me, go away from my blog. I think contemporary dance is sublime. And cool. Did I mention it's cool?
And ballet! Gosh, the tights for guys are so disturbing. >_> Leaves so little to the imagination. But I think it's quite cool too. (:
But still, hiphop ttm.
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no weeping,
no hurt or pain,
no suffering;
you hold me now,
you hold me now.
---
I heart Hillsongs. Their lyrics are so.. powerful. Punches right through our delicate hearts.
Studying at Cheng Yi's place tomorrow! I should sleep,
Because I have to do my wonderful *note the sarcasm* portfolio presentation.
So I can't have eyebags!
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Nights.
Vic! Get well soon ;D
Give me some leeway luh, stop hounding me about everything I do. I know it's a prerequisite to your job, but you don't need to take it too far.
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Today was fun. I got 14/16 for math TA! Super happy now my math is improving, finally. It's waited long enough. Assembly was wayyyyyyy cool. Everyone who doesn't agree with me, go away from my blog. I think contemporary dance is sublime. And cool. Did I mention it's cool?
And ballet! Gosh, the tights for guys are so disturbing. >_> Leaves so little to the imagination. But I think it's quite cool too. (:
But still, hiphop ttm.
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no weeping,
no hurt or pain,
no suffering;
you hold me now,
you hold me now.
---
I heart Hillsongs. Their lyrics are so.. powerful. Punches right through our delicate hearts.
Studying at Cheng Yi's place tomorrow! I should sleep,
Because I have to do my wonderful *note the sarcasm* portfolio presentation.
So I can't have eyebags!
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Nights.
Vic! Get well soon ;D
Monday, August 17, 2009
I'm totally going to miss you guys for the four months you ain't here. And I'm sure other people will too. ):
But well. THEN YOU'LL BE BACK! :D
Anyway, yesterday was a blast too. I'm beginning to feel weekends are like, seriously very fulfilling. After church stoned in church spending quality time with friends and Andrew's laptop, before going to Shak's house to do some serious megastudying before Chem test today. Which I'm quite happy to say paid off, albeit for some lame careless misunderstandings during the actual test which are possibly causing me to lose three precious marks. Especially in this all-important season where every mark counts toward something grah.
Shakila's mom's cooking is totally ownage. MEE GORENG! ;D
Then bus-ed to the airport to meet the others before sending Eddie Roo and Co off.
It might seem short, but that's cause I lack the kind of vocabulary to express how I actually feel. Just get this, it was great.
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cause it's you and me
and all of the people;
and the acoustic version
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Like this person mentioned above, Chem was relatively good. Just that grah, I think I wasted three marks. Down the drain never to come back. Bleah.
Off to do Portfolio presentation script.
We haven't had a nice talk for so long! Grah.
But well. THEN YOU'LL BE BACK! :D
Anyway, yesterday was a blast too. I'm beginning to feel weekends are like, seriously very fulfilling. After church stoned in church spending quality time with friends and Andrew's laptop, before going to Shak's house to do some serious megastudying before Chem test today. Which I'm quite happy to say paid off, albeit for some lame careless misunderstandings during the actual test which are possibly causing me to lose three precious marks. Especially in this all-important season where every mark counts toward something grah.
Shakila's mom's cooking is totally ownage. MEE GORENG! ;D
Then bus-ed to the airport to meet the others before sending Eddie Roo and Co off.
It might seem short, but that's cause I lack the kind of vocabulary to express how I actually feel. Just get this, it was great.
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cause it's you and me
and all of the people;
and the acoustic version
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Like this person mentioned above, Chem was relatively good. Just that grah, I think I wasted three marks. Down the drain never to come back. Bleah.
Off to do Portfolio presentation script.
We haven't had a nice talk for so long! Grah.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Today was, in one word, amazing. :D
Went to Liang Zhi's really really big huge cool house to meet them before walking to East Coast Park. It's like, I told Vic and Eddie 11? And then we left LZ's house at 11.30 gosh, so paiseh luh =\ And Vic's parents were waiting too! Grah.
But anyway. LZ/Cheng Yi's house is huge. Maybe... three times the size of mine? Hahaha. So we took half an hour or so to find Vic and Eddie and Colleen, and then it sort of took some time to pick up momentum. Kicking the ball around, throwing the frisbee randomly. Until we started playing Captain's Ball! Which was really fun, heh. I realize I can jump quite well. o-o And it was like, really tiring, so I'm quite sloshed now. But at that moment you really don't feel anything? Cause you're so high. (:
So we played/ate/drank until maybe 2 plus..? And that's when everybody came. So in total there was.. LZ, LJ, Cheng Yi, Cliff, Vic, Vic Ho, Colleen, MAJ, Delane, Roo, Eddie, Flora, RachelK, RachLee, Lorelle and Dinah. Oh and Tamtam popped by too! Not bad right, the turnout. ;D
And I thought we wouldn't have enough food, so like Vic's parents supplied us with like, sausages and fishballs and two containers of bee hoon. Which were hardly touched at all =\ Grah. But we cleaned out the sausages! Still felt paiseh about the food though. Not to mention the huge amount Cheng Yi's dad brought. But we finished... 8 liters of liquids? Oh wait, that's horribly little. To quote Vic, "Everyone was too busy having fun." How true.
And we were happily playing soccer. Although it was a bit crowded. Just that one bit crowded. It was still fun. And like, they're all not bad! Honestly truthfully cross my heart. HAHA Up! But me and Delane sneaked off to Parkway to get a cake for the GohBros. I TRIED roller blading there, but for some reason my foot kept on tilting to one side and it was seriously uncomfortable. So we decided to rent bikes, and the guy typing right now was cycling barefoot, until we got to some random shop and bought slippers. Oh well, I needed a new pair anyway.
Chocolate truffle cake! It was really REALLY good. And it was thirty bucks! o-o Worth it yeah. So a quick birthday celebration, make wish sing song cut cake. Notice "blow candles" was left out because the wind was too strong for lighting; in the end we just got them to imagine there was fire there. Heh. Then Vic had to rush off for ballet class looking really quite sian (=\) so we moved over nearer to the beach and whiled away the time.
But not long after we left! To go to Liang Zhi's house, once again. It's seriously huge. Grah. Did I mention it's about three times the size of mine? And I like their grand piano. And the shower brand they use. It makes your hair so soft omg! Haha gosh I sound like a girl. Ordered pizza for dinner in addition to all the leftover food we had from his dad.
And then we slacked watching Liar Liar until I decided that I'd missed too much of tkd and cabbed over there. Which turned out to be a completely NOT prudent decision, because we did absolutely nothing. Lol.
And I got clearance to go send Eddie and Andrew off! Rawr I'm so going to miss them. =\ Oh well they'll be back in four months. ;D
SPANISH AND FRENCH are absolutely cool languages. I'm going to try and pick either/both of them. And I still need to continue practising dance! Hiphop/break ftw.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow, yet at the same time, hoping today didn't have to end so early. You guys rock (: Thanks for making today a great one.
If I could have ONE grouse about today, it'll be that I played way too little soccer. ): But there'll always be next time! And everything else pretty much owned. Who's up for Cage sometime in the future. Haha.
Pictures when I get them!
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pictures of you
pictures of me
hung up upon the wall
for the world to see;
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And another video. Which I can't embed, because they don't allow it. Evil people
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fh61uElcOck
(:
i don't want this moment
to ever end;
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Ciao.
Went to Liang Zhi's really really big huge cool house to meet them before walking to East Coast Park. It's like, I told Vic and Eddie 11? And then we left LZ's house at 11.30 gosh, so paiseh luh =\ And Vic's parents were waiting too! Grah.
But anyway. LZ/Cheng Yi's house is huge. Maybe... three times the size of mine? Hahaha. So we took half an hour or so to find Vic and Eddie and Colleen, and then it sort of took some time to pick up momentum. Kicking the ball around, throwing the frisbee randomly. Until we started playing Captain's Ball! Which was really fun, heh. I realize I can jump quite well. o-o And it was like, really tiring, so I'm quite sloshed now. But at that moment you really don't feel anything? Cause you're so high. (:
So we played/ate/drank until maybe 2 plus..? And that's when everybody came. So in total there was.. LZ, LJ, Cheng Yi, Cliff, Vic, Vic Ho, Colleen, MAJ, Delane, Roo, Eddie, Flora, RachelK, RachLee, Lorelle and Dinah. Oh and Tamtam popped by too! Not bad right, the turnout. ;D
And I thought we wouldn't have enough food, so like Vic's parents supplied us with like, sausages and fishballs and two containers of bee hoon. Which were hardly touched at all =\ Grah. But we cleaned out the sausages! Still felt paiseh about the food though. Not to mention the huge amount Cheng Yi's dad brought. But we finished... 8 liters of liquids? Oh wait, that's horribly little. To quote Vic, "Everyone was too busy having fun." How true.
And we were happily playing soccer. Although it was a bit crowded. Just that one bit crowded. It was still fun. And like, they're all not bad! Honestly truthfully cross my heart. HAHA Up! But me and Delane sneaked off to Parkway to get a cake for the GohBros. I TRIED roller blading there, but for some reason my foot kept on tilting to one side and it was seriously uncomfortable. So we decided to rent bikes, and the guy typing right now was cycling barefoot, until we got to some random shop and bought slippers. Oh well, I needed a new pair anyway.
Chocolate truffle cake! It was really REALLY good. And it was thirty bucks! o-o Worth it yeah. So a quick birthday celebration, make wish sing song cut cake. Notice "blow candles" was left out because the wind was too strong for lighting; in the end we just got them to imagine there was fire there. Heh. Then Vic had to rush off for ballet class looking really quite sian (=\) so we moved over nearer to the beach and whiled away the time.
But not long after we left! To go to Liang Zhi's house, once again. It's seriously huge. Grah. Did I mention it's about three times the size of mine? And I like their grand piano. And the shower brand they use. It makes your hair so soft omg! Haha gosh I sound like a girl. Ordered pizza for dinner in addition to all the leftover food we had from his dad.
And then we slacked watching Liar Liar until I decided that I'd missed too much of tkd and cabbed over there. Which turned out to be a completely NOT prudent decision, because we did absolutely nothing. Lol.
And I got clearance to go send Eddie and Andrew off! Rawr I'm so going to miss them. =\ Oh well they'll be back in four months. ;D
SPANISH AND FRENCH are absolutely cool languages. I'm going to try and pick either/both of them. And I still need to continue practising dance! Hiphop/break ftw.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow, yet at the same time, hoping today didn't have to end so early. You guys rock (: Thanks for making today a great one.
If I could have ONE grouse about today, it'll be that I played way too little soccer. ): But there'll always be next time! And everything else pretty much owned. Who's up for Cage sometime in the future. Haha.
Pictures when I get them!
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pictures of you
pictures of me
hung up upon the wall
for the world to see;
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And another video. Which I can't embed, because they don't allow it. Evil people
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fh61uElcOck
(:
i don't want this moment
to ever end;
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Ciao.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Up! with LZ was quite fun lol. But yeah, it sorta got boring because it's like, a kid's movie. But it was definitely one of the deeper Pixar films, and yeah there was loads and loads of great quotes. Coming up!
Firstly, by the Talking Dog, Doug --
"Please be my prisoner!" directed towards the big bird.
FAIL.
Secondly, also by the Talking Dog --
"Oh oh let me tell you a joke - a squirrel runs up to me and says 'I forgot to store acorns in the summer and now I'm dead.' Haha. It's funny because the squirrel's dead!"
OMG FAIL. LOL.
And thirdly, possibly the most meaningful quote in the whole film, from Ellie to Carl --
"Thanks for the adventure; now, go have a new one! :D"
Gosh I nearly cried at that one. It's so... deep.
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Then cycling at Pasir Ris Park with Shak, LZ, Marcus, Roo, Eddie, Veron, Thom!
It was epic luh. (: And haha, I haven't forgotten how to do a hop! :D :D :D
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But that was yesterday. Today is possibly even more epic.
Church in the morning, until 2.20 when I went to Kevin's house to get a lift to the Hiding place to play soccer! It was way cool. Like I had really good chances, but yeah failed to convert them haiz. But in the end, 0-0 at half time. The emoticon was completely unintended. So, things to improve on: stamina, and finishing. Rawr.
Then, I completely rushed off to Orchard to find Eddie and Roo, and I was horribly scared that I'd be late for the movie. So I was rushing and rushing and rushing. Until there was possibly the most EPIC mix up EVER. Hee. Supposedly Roo had checked movie timings last night. And Haunting was supposed to still be on at The Cathay. But it wasn't! So technically I wasn't late for the movie. (:
Met up with Vic, who was "right in front of Park Mall". Which made Eddie look at the other side, staring into space looking for a girl in a white dress. Until she popped up the other side! Heh. Then, bus-ed to her house after maybe fifteen minutes of discussion of what we could do. Like the original idea was to watch Haunting! But Haunting wasn't showing. So the back up plan was to go to her house and L4D. But we wanted to explore all options. Such as, shopping, walking around, checking out Ion Orchard, etc... And then we decided on going to her house and L4D. Fail! Haha.
VIC YOUR HOUSE IS HOW NICE CAN. D: And the sliding door is way cool.
Whee Eddie said for a first-time L4D Versus player I was amazing. I should take that as a compliment right? (: But it was fun. Then when I got up to leave I was like half light-headed. Lol. I always feel like that after mega-spamming action games. Cause your attention levels are at the maxzxc for so long at one shot!
Yeah then I left and Vic's mom is super nice and I cabbed with Eddie to Kembangan. And here I am home! I think this year's National Day song is really good.
Oh oh, and when we first reached Vic's house the TV was on and Just for Variety was on and OMG THOSE PEOPLE ARE SCARY BUT SCARY IN A PRO WAY. D: I wish I could do those kind of stuff.
But yes.
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THANK YOU GOD FOR SUCH A GREAT WEEKEND.
Please bless next weekend (:
Firstly, by the Talking Dog, Doug --
"Please be my prisoner!" directed towards the big bird.
FAIL.
Secondly, also by the Talking Dog --
"Oh oh let me tell you a joke - a squirrel runs up to me and says 'I forgot to store acorns in the summer and now I'm dead.' Haha. It's funny because the squirrel's dead!"
OMG FAIL. LOL.
And thirdly, possibly the most meaningful quote in the whole film, from Ellie to Carl --
"Thanks for the adventure; now, go have a new one! :D"
Gosh I nearly cried at that one. It's so... deep.
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Then cycling at Pasir Ris Park with Shak, LZ, Marcus, Roo, Eddie, Veron, Thom!
It was epic luh. (: And haha, I haven't forgotten how to do a hop! :D :D :D
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But that was yesterday. Today is possibly even more epic.
Church in the morning, until 2.20 when I went to Kevin's house to get a lift to the Hiding place to play soccer! It was way cool. Like I had really good chances, but yeah failed to convert them haiz. But in the end, 0-0 at half time. The emoticon was completely unintended. So, things to improve on: stamina, and finishing. Rawr.
Then, I completely rushed off to Orchard to find Eddie and Roo, and I was horribly scared that I'd be late for the movie. So I was rushing and rushing and rushing. Until there was possibly the most EPIC mix up EVER. Hee. Supposedly Roo had checked movie timings last night. And Haunting was supposed to still be on at The Cathay. But it wasn't! So technically I wasn't late for the movie. (:
Met up with Vic, who was "right in front of Park Mall". Which made Eddie look at the other side, staring into space looking for a girl in a white dress. Until she popped up the other side! Heh. Then, bus-ed to her house after maybe fifteen minutes of discussion of what we could do. Like the original idea was to watch Haunting! But Haunting wasn't showing. So the back up plan was to go to her house and L4D. But we wanted to explore all options. Such as, shopping, walking around, checking out Ion Orchard, etc... And then we decided on going to her house and L4D. Fail! Haha.
VIC YOUR HOUSE IS HOW NICE CAN. D: And the sliding door is way cool.
Whee Eddie said for a first-time L4D Versus player I was amazing. I should take that as a compliment right? (: But it was fun. Then when I got up to leave I was like half light-headed. Lol. I always feel like that after mega-spamming action games. Cause your attention levels are at the maxzxc for so long at one shot!
Yeah then I left and Vic's mom is super nice and I cabbed with Eddie to Kembangan. And here I am home! I think this year's National Day song is really good.
Oh oh, and when we first reached Vic's house the TV was on and Just for Variety was on and OMG THOSE PEOPLE ARE SCARY BUT SCARY IN A PRO WAY. D: I wish I could do those kind of stuff.
But yes.
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THANK YOU GOD FOR SUCH A GREAT WEEKEND.
Please bless next weekend (:
Friday, August 7, 2009
No time to post a lot! But yeah, let's do a quick one anyway.
NDP celebration today was gosh boring. And Ashraf and Gulshan are sadly lame. Not dumb lame, sadly lame. Go figure.
Lit was good. I only got 20/30 for participation marks. Bleahhhh.
Soccer. Dunno what to say, it was... bittersweet I guess? At least I know I haven't lost my shooting ability. But sometimes people get so damn irritating. As if you've never missed a shot before! Please la. If someone makes a good shot congratulate him for it, don't call it lucky. Ugh.
Then went home. Played piano! MY TEST IS ON 911 OMG FAIL. D:
Then went out. Popped by the library to see if my book was not on loan, but it wasn't GRRR. And went to find RachelK and her friend, who were studying at Tampines library. Gosh Rachel I do not talk like a girl omg. Using omg is not a girl talk trait. D: And your friend is surprisingly quiet. Hmm. Antithesis I guess. :D
YOUTH LOUNGE IS CLOSED UNTIL MONDAY LIKE GRRRR. Cause of Hope Fair haiz. So today's church time was spent L4Ding in the music room! I think I'm getting better yay.
Then dinner with Roo's LG. And sitting in with their LG. Omg I am so looking forward to LG laaaaaa. Like it's hilarious. I shall quote Rachel Lee, when she was referring to a picture she took --
"Eh I am blur!"
Understatement of the day, definitely. :D And that's not the only one during their LG. :D Teehee! *Doublepwn*
And tomorrow's looking good too! Like even though I came back so late my parents didn't really get irritated and all. So yeah. Piano then UP! with churchies then cycling. Sounds fun? Definitely. So be jealous, you!
Ciao. (:
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Haiz, you. I'm worried about you leh. And don't you dare tell me not to worry or shrug it off or give me some dao face. Grr. How the hell did you wind up like this?
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This is Sum 41, Pieces.
(The second one rocks TTM)
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I’d thought it’d be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing could save me
But it’s the only thing that I have
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
(On my own!)
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
NDP celebration today was gosh boring. And Ashraf and Gulshan are sadly lame. Not dumb lame, sadly lame. Go figure.
Lit was good. I only got 20/30 for participation marks. Bleahhhh.
Soccer. Dunno what to say, it was... bittersweet I guess? At least I know I haven't lost my shooting ability. But sometimes people get so damn irritating. As if you've never missed a shot before! Please la. If someone makes a good shot congratulate him for it, don't call it lucky. Ugh.
Then went home. Played piano! MY TEST IS ON 911 OMG FAIL. D:
Then went out. Popped by the library to see if my book was not on loan, but it wasn't GRRR. And went to find RachelK and her friend, who were studying at Tampines library. Gosh Rachel I do not talk like a girl omg. Using omg is not a girl talk trait. D: And your friend is surprisingly quiet. Hmm. Antithesis I guess. :D
YOUTH LOUNGE IS CLOSED UNTIL MONDAY LIKE GRRRR. Cause of Hope Fair haiz. So today's church time was spent L4Ding in the music room! I think I'm getting better yay.
Then dinner with Roo's LG. And sitting in with their LG. Omg I am so looking forward to LG laaaaaa. Like it's hilarious. I shall quote Rachel Lee, when she was referring to a picture she took --
"Eh I am blur!"
Understatement of the day, definitely. :D And that's not the only one during their LG. :D Teehee! *Doublepwn*
And tomorrow's looking good too! Like even though I came back so late my parents didn't really get irritated and all. So yeah. Piano then UP! with churchies then cycling. Sounds fun? Definitely. So be jealous, you!
Ciao. (:
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Haiz, you. I'm worried about you leh. And don't you dare tell me not to worry or shrug it off or give me some dao face. Grr. How the hell did you wind up like this?
---
This is Sum 41, Pieces.
(The second one rocks TTM)
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I’d thought it’d be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing could save me
But it’s the only thing that I have
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
(On my own!)
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Monday, August 3, 2009
Okay. Yesterday. Church was fun! Although I was really very tired. But the sermon was cool. And sg was even more tiring heh. Nothing much to talk about there. Oh oh oh GOOD LUCK RACHEL ONG YOU. Don't worry so much about your exam! :D I certainly am not. Hee.
So I went home and showered and changed into formal stuff. And when I went back to church everyone was literally shocked. Exclamations of "what are you wearing!" reverberated round the room. Mega alliteration there, and it wasn't that bad actually. The stupid tie luh, keep on falling down cause it was spoiled and I didn't realize grr.
Anyway I sounded fine during the practice! With Rachel and the others. HAHA Bertrand ain't that good at PvZ. Practice, man. Practice. Then... Charlene's dad drove us to Waterloo street where the thing was already starting and this horribly scary pro guy was playing his piece. :O
Junior section passed quickly, CHARLENE YOU SOUNDED FINE. Then dinner with her family, I spent 6 bucks on a plate of rice. Can you believe that? Long beans, steamed egg, herbal chicken leg, sweet and sour pork, potatoes. NICE RIGHT. Heh. I was stuffed, to be honest.
Then rushed back to the hall, cause I was going to be late. And I was like really praying hard to God. Like the FOP sermon! Offer up a prayer to God when you're worried about something. And I think He answered. At least I didn't feel that nervous when I was going on stage. Surprisingly. But I still stumbled around five times GRR. Oh well a lot of people said it wasn't noticeable. But it was so obvious! Heh. Showmanship ftw.
Chris. Aholt. You. Are. Super. Scary. Okay? One year older than me you know! And he's winning competitions. Omgosh man.
Oh well. After that Starbucks, then when I was totally STUFFED, cabbed home with my family (:
I didn't feel like going to school! Like I seriously felt nauseous, cause of all the food.
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Today.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Metaphorically. Heh.
But I didn't want to go to school so bad, so I practically dragged myself out of the house. I had some premonition that something would go wrong though. Hmm. Then I found out in the second period of school. I HAD A LOVELY MAJOR COLD. Irritating. Can you believe I sneezed 20 times during one period. Rawr.
And not surprisingly, I handed up my first late piece of the year. Who put in the deduction? Mrs. Smith, it figures. Oh well this is what you get for procrastinating your ass off. Haiz.
And I left school immediately after SS although there was only one period left. =\
Stupid doctor was full, so I have to go back later. Grr.
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And I shall head off and do devotion now.
So I went home and showered and changed into formal stuff. And when I went back to church everyone was literally shocked. Exclamations of "what are you wearing!" reverberated round the room. Mega alliteration there, and it wasn't that bad actually. The stupid tie luh, keep on falling down cause it was spoiled and I didn't realize grr.
Anyway I sounded fine during the practice! With Rachel and the others. HAHA Bertrand ain't that good at PvZ. Practice, man. Practice. Then... Charlene's dad drove us to Waterloo street where the thing was already starting and this horribly scary pro guy was playing his piece. :O
Junior section passed quickly, CHARLENE YOU SOUNDED FINE. Then dinner with her family, I spent 6 bucks on a plate of rice. Can you believe that? Long beans, steamed egg, herbal chicken leg, sweet and sour pork, potatoes. NICE RIGHT. Heh. I was stuffed, to be honest.
Then rushed back to the hall, cause I was going to be late. And I was like really praying hard to God. Like the FOP sermon! Offer up a prayer to God when you're worried about something. And I think He answered. At least I didn't feel that nervous when I was going on stage. Surprisingly. But I still stumbled around five times GRR. Oh well a lot of people said it wasn't noticeable. But it was so obvious! Heh. Showmanship ftw.
Chris. Aholt. You. Are. Super. Scary. Okay? One year older than me you know! And he's winning competitions. Omgosh man.
Oh well. After that Starbucks, then when I was totally STUFFED, cabbed home with my family (:
I didn't feel like going to school! Like I seriously felt nauseous, cause of all the food.
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Today.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Metaphorically. Heh.
But I didn't want to go to school so bad, so I practically dragged myself out of the house. I had some premonition that something would go wrong though. Hmm. Then I found out in the second period of school. I HAD A LOVELY MAJOR COLD. Irritating. Can you believe I sneezed 20 times during one period. Rawr.
And not surprisingly, I handed up my first late piece of the year. Who put in the deduction? Mrs. Smith, it figures. Oh well this is what you get for procrastinating your ass off. Haiz.
And I left school immediately after SS although there was only one period left. =\
Stupid doctor was full, so I have to go back later. Grr.
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And I shall head off and do devotion now.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Okay, tag replies here, because there's so much to say and Cbox is lousy at doing that. (:
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Lip Tong: Yeahhhh man haha. I seriously hope I stop screwing up math xD What were you doing at Tampines Interchange today! :O HAHA the particle u-turns! (Unless that was some lame joke o-o)
Cheng Yi: HAHA I know I know! But omgggggg, that video is like so champion luh. Other than "Word of the Day" HAHAHHAHA. Have fun at FOP you! Make sure you take my notes D:
Elisa: YESSS OMG I miss those times, could you believe it. Even with four girls bullying me (hmph) it was still damn super freaking epic laaaa. Thanks so much man :D And I'll grow, you wait and see HAHA. TAKE TRIPLE SCIENCE LIT! Then I can help you xD I suck at history; why do you think I didn't take it heh. And yes, smileys rock. :D :D :D :D :D :D
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Yay. I'm surprisingly not THAT pissed off I can't go for FOP. Oh well. Praying to God does help with your worries!
So.
Specify your worries
Take action on them!
Offer up a prayer to God
Place your trust in the Lord!
FOP to the max. Planetshakers next year hehe. :D
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Devotion today.
(:
On a side note, Lord help me fulfill my promises. Let them not be empty shells. :D
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OMG 400 POSTS YAY.
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Lip Tong: Yeahhhh man haha. I seriously hope I stop screwing up math xD What were you doing at Tampines Interchange today! :O HAHA the particle u-turns! (Unless that was some lame joke o-o)
Cheng Yi: HAHA I know I know! But omgggggg, that video is like so champion luh. Other than "Word of the Day" HAHAHHAHA. Have fun at FOP you! Make sure you take my notes D:
Elisa: YESSS OMG I miss those times, could you believe it. Even with four girls bullying me (hmph) it was still damn super freaking epic laaaa. Thanks so much man :D And I'll grow, you wait and see HAHA. TAKE TRIPLE SCIENCE LIT! Then I can help you xD I suck at history; why do you think I didn't take it heh. And yes, smileys rock. :D :D :D :D :D :D
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Yay. I'm surprisingly not THAT pissed off I can't go for FOP. Oh well. Praying to God does help with your worries!
So.
Specify your worries
Take action on them!
Offer up a prayer to God
Place your trust in the Lord!
FOP to the max. Planetshakers next year hehe. :D
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Devotion today.
(:
On a side note, Lord help me fulfill my promises. Let them not be empty shells. :D
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OMG 400 POSTS YAY.
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