Hello everybody! Today was fun (:

Really short day of school -- supposed to end at 11.30 save for extra lessons. But it was fun nonetheless. Played soccer for afternoon PE, I haven't really lost my touch! :D Scored two goals too whee. Bio extra lesson was really fun too we got crammed into a class with only space for 18 tables but it was really cozy and nice. Although sometimes I do get a tad bit disturbed by the 3 gays always sitting next to me (I'M KIDDING KAY GUYS DON'T KILL ME (: )

Supposed to have track team debrief but they scheduled it at 5 omg so freaking late so I gave it a miss. Went home to shower then went out again to study in church.

Church was awesome la! I thought I'd be the only one there but in the end Lester Han Qi Enoch Jessica and Wen Ya appeared from thin air. So I got some work done (yay me that's an improvement already) and had fun!

I'm going to grow fat omg finished nearly a whole tub of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough on my own urgh.

I shall go running tomorrow! Then worship practice at night. Oh yeah there's math study session with Leonard too. :\ another busy day yay I like busy days. They keep my mind from wandering.

I was thinking of changing the tagline of my blog... but the more I think about it the more apt I think it is. Makes so much sense! So yes I shan't change it.

Twitter has become very weirdly fun nowadays, I'm already nearing T2K haha.

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I CANNOT WAIT FOR SUNDAY HOMG -hyperventilates- Wootwoot!

<3 my family (:

So I haven't posted in quite awhile.

Don't know why I've been so tired like recently but well, it's been screwing around with my brain my goodness. I keep on thinking retarded thoughts about like, how I'm so mediocre and useless and good-for-nothing.

And kept overthinking about how one of the few friends I really trust and treat like a sister doesn't give a shit about me. I was wrong. So I'm out here apologizing for good -- I'm sorry, ________! You know who you are; I never meant to put you through everything and I know you don't deserve it. Forgive me for any dumb stuff I might say; like, whack me on the head if you hear a word from my mouth about anything stupid!! Stay awesome kay, you really are. (:

WARNING: All the Bieber haters go away! I'm now an official Belieber. Watched Never Say Never with three awesome people on Thursday, Chevy Karyl and Eddie. And it totally changed my perception of Justin Bieber.

Because originally I thought he only sang songs like Baby, which I felt were quite... lame, to be honest. But now he has songs like Pray and Born to Be Somebody, plus his voice is pretty great so why not?

Justin Bieber is now cool in my eyes (Y).

I can't wait for tomorrow and Thursday, really. And of course there's TGIGF!! Yay I'm so psyched right now. Tomorrow there's PE when we'll actually be playing games, Thursday is a super short day and there's dance/worship practice (two of the things I just enjoy doing) and then what's there to say for TGIGF! <33333 This week is a win, even though I've had so many shitty emotions.

I shall make it a point to revive my blog right now. I need a history man -- wanna see just how far I've come/will go. Because I was born to be somebody;

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I need someone to help me redesign my blog! It's so boring =\ Any offers? Ahahahaha.

Well so me and my parents got into some lame fight again. Over something so insignificant it's almost laughable. Almost.

So in the morning, I forget to bring my earphones out of the house, and I call my mom to help me bring them out. I wait for her for ten minutes at the traffic light, she hasn't come yet, so I think "okay, why not wait for her at the bus stop since she's going to pass by the place anyway." So I go to the bus stop and sit down and read Newsweek.

And then my dad comes out, doesn't see my mom either so he's like waiting at the steps looking out for her, when we both hear my mom calling from the other side of the road. I'm like all "oh shit!" so I get up and walk over. Supposedly, episode over, right?

WRONG.

So now it's past midnight, and apparently I was completely in the wrong! Hmm, I wonder why? Okay yes granted I made my mom walk up and down looking for me but yes I apologize. But then my dad goes on and on about how I always wait to get served (yeah right I went to sit down because I knew at the time that she would walk pass!).

I really don't get it. Doesn't everyone make assumptions now and then? And it wasn't even as though this assumption was like, out of this world, like she's going to be at the bus stop opposite Tampines North. No, she normally walks out by the stairs so I wait for her there, what's the crime in that?

I don't get it at all zzz.

So I guess I haven't posted or blogged in quite some time, haiz.

Feeling quite sian right now and I guess nobody comes to this blog anymore, so I guess I can rant here pretty safely (:

I'm starting to feel pretty damn friendless again. It's always this bunch of people, and me. Them, and me. I never really feel part of anything and the worst part is I don't know why! Even the new friends I make are the same...

So I really have no idea what to do! I just need to find a friend/group of friends that I can really really click with and just talk to about all the shit that's going on and all.

There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

And okay just a public announcement to all the girls I know -- Just because I repeatedly send SMSes without waiting for replies doesn't mean I like you/am irritating okay! ): I just.. have a phobia about people not replying messages, it makes me wonder what I've done wrong. I don't know why either, maybe cause of bad past experiences but yeah, it's just like that! SO PLEASE DON'T JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS ><

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I need to change; and fast. Otherwise second chances aren't going to last.

Hey all! I cooked dinner today!

Beef stew with sourdough bread. So yes the stir-frying of the beef stew was super painful! Cause of all the oil burns and all and now for some reason my hands are a bit numb... hmm.

But the beef stew wasn't too shabby at all! For someone with no cooking experience, at least. (:

So yes!

Pictures will be on Facebook if I find the time/energy hee.

Christmas has come and gone and I feel like it hasn't really.

Honestly, this year has been way too rushed. And next year it's already A level year. I don't even know how time passes this quickly, it's as though I'm aging twice as fast as compared to in secondary school.

But this year I've made my fair share of friends, and had more than a few fallouts with supposed friends. I guess it's all in God's time? But I'll continue to work on the current friendships that I have and of course on making myself a better person. It's always the journey, never the end, cause the end isn't anywhere near (:

Christmas this year wasn't much of an affair, just service (which I hardly heard anything at because I was rushing about the whole of Pasir Ris/Tampines finding wallets that I left in bags -- another story) and then after that lunch with LG at Buddy Hoagies (which wasn't the greatest cause I was super super super tired). Went home and crashed and in doing so, nearly completely missed Enoch's Christmas party cause I couldn't wake up. But thank God for my parents, they actually wanted to have dinner with me but when I told them I wanted to go for the party they sent me all the way there in a cab (: I reallyreally heart my parents.

But looks like the new year's coming soon! Time to start thinking up resolutions and all already hee. And well, the holidays still have tons of activities coming up! 2LG kayaking, FIFA 10 Cage soccer, New Year's dinner, Watchnight Service, ahhh I'm getting pretty excited about it all.

Learn to love, love to learn. I think that's gonna be my motto next year :D

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BIG SHOUTOUT TO EVERYONE WHO MADE THIS YEAR AN AWESOME ONE FOR ME. (: LOVE YOU GUYS AND OF COURSE YOU SURELY KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

Okay since I'm so damn bored at home, I decided to write a post! Yay me.

What has happened since camp... TOFU was also a job well done by the TOFU team and I'm really really encouraged by their progress as a batch (: Congratulations guys! The whole day was honestly extremely fun and I'm sorry I kinda screwed up your timetabling. But all's well that ends well! (:

After that was the Retreat Camp (hahaha that sounds so similar to Raffles Institution Secondary School LOL). Which was pretty fun, managed to do some good bonding with the people in my LG whom I hardly hang out with, so that's awesome (: And yeah got to know more Christians from all walks of life! So yes that's great too :D

Okay I know my posts don't do the events justice but seriously I'm too sian to type out so much heh so yes pictures are on Facebook! And since Facebook never deletes anything from its site, I guess history's printed in ink eh?

I'm still sick omg from after TOFU I don't believe this I NEED TO RECOVER so I can sing properly! And later still going over to Eddie's house to sleepover/get ready for LG Xmas party tomorrow. Hmmmm fun much but I hope I recover GOD HEAL ME PLEASE.

Finally, God, I've failed again and you know it. Help me change please? That demon is still struggling with the Holy Spirit inside of me. In Jesus' name, demon, GET OUT. I command you, fool. Get out.

There, I'm done. (: SCII with MK now!