Hm. Happy New Year, all. I really hope this year will be better than the last year.

Watchnight service yesterday was so-so, before it went out with the guys for Yes Man (a second time, I am so boliao). But seriously it's hilarious hhahahhaha. After that went for Superdog, 2 hotdogs! In four bites wahahahhahahha. Okay I'm crazy. Then went shopping for new clothes at TM/Century, was like epic fail until I went to Split. At least there could find a couple of good shirts. Then dinner and a haircut, which made my hair look so freaking nerd. So yeah, spikes up.

Back to church, pool with random peoples and just plain slacking around. Went out with Clarice Shak and Edward for dinner then went back for watchnight service. Heh. It was a quite affair, not much to talk about. A Call to Watch. After watchnight slacked around for a bit, then went for supper with Kelyn, Rachael, Edward and Liang Jie, lols. Then Liang Jie's dad came to fetch them back to his house cause they were staying over, but I couldn't. Sadly. Sheesh. It's the dumbest story I've ever heard.

Okay so at first my dad doesn't allow me to go, cause at first I didn't know there would be adults around. And then I find out that Cheng Yi's aunt and uncle are living with them, and that their parents would be going home like that night. So I call my dad, tell him the new information, he says get them to call him so that he can confirm. Okay, sure thing. 5 seconds later he calls me back asking why so sudden got new information. Maybe that's because I didn't know beforehand? And he says he doesn't like it, I'm like what's your problem, I've fulfilled all your requirements! It's like he thinks we'll be drinking alcohol and everything in a house under the watch of like 4 adults. Or do other random stuff "that we won't normally do". And he said that he doesn't care if the mom or dad calls him, because he apparently thinks that I'll get some random adult and scam his ass off. So irritating and infuriating! The worst part is that he'll think I'll go to such a retarded extent just to do something that I won't even do at all. Sheeeesh. Even when I get Liang Jie's dad to call him, he says no. Argh. Next time I guess. Oh wait, here's the best part. He believes 21 year olds shouldn't be mixing with teenagers my age, cause "things might get interpreted wrongly"! I called him paranoid and insecure. Okay maybe I didn't say insecure out loud. Oh wells.

And yea, I've been feeling like really damn sad these past few days, I just don't know why. Just this really heavy weight on me that I can't place. And I've got this freaky feeling that my friends are like going to backstab me just around the corner. Like I don't know which are the friends who are true and the ones who are just there for the ride. Haiz. Lord, please help me understand.. And give me some peace in my life. Thanks for everything you've given to me, all the blessings that you've provided. But I pray that you'll continue to guide me out of this huge trouble that's weighing me down. Even I can't really point out what it is. Maybe a combination of everything. But Father I just pray that you'll be supporting me and giving me the strength of heart to strive on, and help me discern my true friends from the pretenders.

In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Okay I don't think I shall post about camp, it's just too time-consuming and I can't remember anything anyway hahahaha. Oh wells. Next time must do like a continuous everyday-diary or something lol.

So the next thing after camp was.. caroling! :D Totally rocked luh, first day was at Taka, met up with Mel, Anne, KJ, Wen Ya and Victor for lunch at eHub. Went back (a bit late) for caroling, changed into our stuffs and then... practised lo. Until 5 plus, got on the bus to Taka, so boliao on the bus lol. Sang random random random songs, did item practice, blahblahblah the usual. Reached Taka, sound test blahblah lol. Okay sounds damn boring hahahhahaha. Oh well. Dinner with Kelyn Pei Ming Melissa Clarissa Vivien, Yoshinoya lol. Then back out for the actual thing! There was like, half of YMpact down there supporting us luh, they totally rock :D The performance was fine, a few hitches here and there but overall still very very nice. Cheers lol. When we finished the guy was announcing the next performer (Raffles Choral) and we were like, "Ohmigosh we're gonna get owned." Turns out we didn't ahahhaa. Camwhoring with the TOFU peoples, then debrief before even more camwhoring! Wanna see the pictures, go Facebook, hahas.

Sadly couldn't go out with Jacko and gang, too late already heh. So went back home on the MRT, all sloshed. LOL. Why so sloshed. Felicia so bad never give me a lift home D: Hahahaha. Joking nia. Reached home, showered, slept. Never been so tired in my life before haha. Next day, caroling chapter two!

Okay so went out again, this time White Sands. The girls were like trying to pry from me who I like -.- Dots luh hahahhahahah THEY FAILED :D And you guys better not tell anybody pfffft. Went back to church for practice (late again). Lols. Bad habit. Cleared up the items, then went to the different homes! It was seriously damn fun luh hahahahhaha. Camwhoring is fun to the max. I think I shan't talk too much about this, or else I won't have time to talk about Christmas day hahahha. After Joel's house, went to some random place in Pasir Ris, really big house hahahahah. Caroled during church service too, stupid candlewax kept on dripping on my hand. Pain leh -.- Lol then we went to outside the Kopitiam to carol! Hahahahah. My voice nearly died there, had to project so much heh. And then we went to Marcus's house for final countdown, his place is like super nice la hahahhahaha. (On the bus there I was like totally zonked). Then fooooood finally food. And more camwhoring! After that we finished off with a couple more songs, said goodbye, then went back to church. Stayed over heh. I tried to write cards. Like tried to. Managed to do maybe 10 or so. After that gave up le, just wayy to tired. Not fair luh the guys pang-seied me to go ECP in Kang Wei's new car. Sheesh. Meanwhile __ managed to pry from me the answer pfft. Crashed in the music room, until like 7 when some random person woke me up from my nice sleep! D: So went to youth lounge, fell asleep again hahahahaha. Until when people started like coming to church so woke up. Changed, went for service, nearly couldn't pay attention to most of it haha.

After service, got like a billion cards, thanks so much to everyone who bothered to write me one, I'm sorry I'm such a lazy bum and failed to give a single person a Christmas card x\ Ahahaa. Rachel, Yi Ying, El and Bert bought me an NIV! Love you guys :D So yeap after that, zaoed with Justin and Yi Ying and Benji to AMK Hub Pepper Lunch! Whee. Damn big luh their servings hahahahah. Then Rachel and her sis joined us for KBox, which was just that bit retarded :D But after a while it got boring, a sentiment which Rachel and Rebekah shared >< So yea, I doubt I'll be going Kboxing again anytime soon. But it was an enjoyable time :D I was forced to confess to __. Pffft. Me of little willpower. Took a train back to Bishan, walked with Rebecca and Rachel to the 59 bus stand, where they very nicely waited for the bus to come with me.

And after that all the way home. Stupid traffic jam made me lag for like half and hour. And my phone mysteriously turned off and I didn't know so when my dad called me he couldn't get through so he was frantic so he called Daryl. Oh well. Nothing big happened, don't worry. But it's a nice feeling when people are so concerned about you. [: Dinner with family, Jack's Place Christmas menu. Their beef steak is so... unique hahha. And I totally loved the cake. And I got 50 bucks for Christmas! And another 70 to spend on New Year clothes wooooot. Which means I need someone to go shopping with me! Preferably someone with a hint of fashion sense. Hinthint, Rachel/Jacko/Clarissa/Melissa/Darryl/Shaun/whoever wants to go with me lol.

Oh well. I've got 200+ bucks to burn and nothing to burn it on yet. Let's go. Hahahahahhahaha.

By the way. IF YOU WANT A BETTER PICTURE ON MY PAST 3 or 4 DAYS. GO SEE FACEBOOK! Facebook photos, better picture. Get the pun? xD Okay sorry lame.

Whee. My life is such a paradox.

But I'll figure it out sooner or later. It just takes some.. time.

And I need to revive my blog soon, it's like, half-dead-going-to-the-cemetery-real-soon.

So. What happened yesterday?

(Actually, the day before)

Moor Camp at Jia Rong's house, damn fun, a bit sian, but GH3 IS DAMN ADDICTIVE WHEE. Not to mention to craziness of the night. I miss Vietnam haiz. Anyway fast forward, went back to church for caroling and a bit of games, Happy birthday Clarice! (it's a shame you were sick, I hope you're fine now). Had nothing to do, so before dinner went with Rachel to collect her specs, WHY SO POSER? :D Transition lens haha. Dinner was normal, then went back to supposedly watch the item people practising, but... one person was missing and all of a sudden I'm in item. Hahahaha. Vanessa was like totally confused about the harmonising bit, but I think she's okay with it now hahaha. I can hardly wait for practice, it's so fun.

But my parents ah, haiz my parents. They want to like limit my church-going time and I just feel that's the wrong way to get me to buck up on my studies and whatnot. Especially by taking away one of the few things I enjoy. But I talked, and I think I get it now, so thanks. You know I'm talking to you right? (: So yeah, stay where you are, I foresee I'll need your help some more.

Anyway. NUFF SAID ABOUT THE EMO STUFFS. I'm going to be happy and optimistic until my mom goes crazy again. :D Whee.

Why do my posts always start and end with "Whee"? I think I change it, yeap.

Thank you for everything You've given me. Especially the things that are close to my heart. Thank you.

Haiz. No more job. It's a bit stupid la, but understandable. No need me, so only when need me then call me. But the stupid thing is that now I've no income, and now I also can't find another job cause I don't know when she'll need my help. How now..

So I get 150 bucks, then I don't get anything else. Looks like my grand plan to go back to Vietnam next year-end is going down the drain like siao. No chance to save up enough money to go back there anymore.

I want to talk to someone. Hopefully that someone'll be able to help.

This kind of feeling sucks. But at least for once it's not cause of my mom screaming at me for no good reason. Heh.

Bittersweet?

Oh schizz I don't think I'll ever post about Vietnam HAIIZZZZZZZZ. Sadded, sadded. Anyway, today.

Morning woke up at 8.30 (SO EARLY D:) to go to Taka to find bottles of poster paint! So boliao right? For game testing tomorrow, haiz. Kelyn was late (as usual) (this time by 45 minutes). So in the end her happy story for waking up at 10 was to take the train to Orchard and take it back to Pasir Ris. Hehe. Oh lol, El called her to wake her up; in the end she went back to sleep. A bit rofl right? Haha.

Anyway, got the paint, went back to Pasir Ris NTUC get the other stuffs, then go back to church, where we of little willpower failed to pull ourselves away from slacking and started playing Scrabble. It was a phail game, don't ask. Lol. Then movie at TM, Beast Stalker, THE NAME DOESN'T EVEN FIT THE STORYLINE ZZ. And it's a dumb movie anyway. Too many flashbacks. Can't blame them, it's a Hong Kong thriller. And the coincidences seriously can kill people. Literally. Sorry, lame pun. Hah.

Tomorrow back to church at 10 after piano. Lol. I can hardly wait to play the games we got lined up. :D

REMIND ME TO POST ABOUT VIETNAM OMG.